♥ BabyV!

2009-08-28T22:47:00.000+08:00

just in case ya'll don't know..I've moved...

www.filledwithlove.onsugar.com

2009-08-15T15:29:00.000+08:00

Ah poop!It's like perlim period and I am so not prepsred for it!I am so dead.I am so far behind in my maths revision.I just found out my Chemistry sucks.At least when they are in like one whole chunk.Give me topic by topic and I'll do well.Through th whol thing at me and I'm lost.A goner.Ah crap! :( Better start studying now.I've slacked a little too much this year,this term,this time.If I want to get into the Vetenarian Science course I want in Ngee Ann..I better buck up!No more slacking.No more being lazy.Now is STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY.Gotta start hypnotising myself.LOL.Ahhhh! (>(oo)<)

2009-08-10T16:41:00.003+08:00

I so need to get a life...I can't believe how boring my life is..!If it's not school then it's at home or tuition.Argh..I can't wait for O levels to finish.Because after O levels...I AM SO GOING TO GET A FKING LIFE!One where I can at least enjoy myself and take pictures...It's been awhile since I last took pictures with my friends..?Or even have some decent fun.Not saying that time spent with my family isn't.Spending time with my family is cool.I can actually laugh with my family... :) But there are days when I need to hang out with my friends too..&it has been ages since I last did that...SIGH....

2009-08-09T16:21:00.003+08:00

First of all,
HAPPY 44th BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! :)
&HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EVERYBODY! :D

Secondly,
Audrey,if you see this..Hope you really are okay now.I don't know what's going on but really,although you won't tell anyone what's up..Just so you know,we all care for you and if you need someone to talk to,you can always call on us. :) Love youu

Hmmm...Okay,so yeah..It's been awhile since I last blogged..Hahaha.How many days ago..?Just last monday...Hahaha.Kay lar.Not too bad. :] Hahaha.So last night we (we meaning my whole family and cousins' family) all went to watch Up at Vivo.Really good show.Must watch. :) The beginning of the movie was really really sweet. ^_^ So yeah...today. :) Today was rather different.We didn't have service and sunday classes like we usually do.We sat randomly in the Oikos room and hed service then message was delivers by Paster Jeff I think... O.o He was an ex-acs boy.How nice..But his sermon was great man!Damn funny.So after the sermon we played games.Hosted by Kai Yang. :) Hahaha.The first game was a little like ice breaker.Get to know each other better.That one was fun.Then while waiting for the rest to finish,we asked each other really lame jokes.here are some :
From Sam(Slim):
One day the daddy papaya and the son papaya went for a walk.Then the daddy papaya said to the son "Son,do you know what you are..?" The son said "Papa ya.." :D
From Constance:
Why did the boy throw the butter out the window?
To see a butter fly. :D
From Nick:
Why did the boy sit on the clock?
So he could be on time. :D
From Constance(again):
What did the male octopus say to the female octopus..?
I WANNA HOLD YOU HAND HAND HAND HAND HAND HAND HAND HAND! XD

Hahahaha.Then we played a second game where we have to go find "dates" with each other and then we have to ask each other questions posed by Kai Yang.Hahaa.So at the end of the game,we heard each other's answers.There was one when we had to ask each other what was our pick-up line&there were lots of funny pick-up lines.Here are some :
From Sam(Slim) :
Do you have any raisins?
No.
Okay,then do you have any dates? :D
From Noelle:
I cannot be a marksman anymore...
Why?
Because I keep missing you.

Hahaha.So yeah..today was a very laugh-ish day. :) LOL!

Overall : I'M A HAPPY LITTLE GIRL! ^__^

2009-08-01T21:38:00.002+08:00

Woohoo!Yesterday really was great. :) PE I managed to play rather well in badminton. :) Played with Keith then after that paired with him to play against Mark and Joseph.Hahahaha!Then Mr Ng trained me a bit.Hahaha.So yeah...After school went for art then went off to shower and off to vivo ti meet Jess. :) Keith came along too!YAY!A day out with my 2 bestfriends! <3 Hahahaha. ^_^ Watched Harry Potter.First of all...THE MOVIE PLOT CHANGED A HELL LOT!It's completely different from the damn book..?Jess and I were like "THIS IS NOT FROM THE BOOK!" "THIS WAS NOT SUPPOSE TO HAPPEN!" "THIS DIDN'T HAPPEN!" Hahahahaa!While Keith was sitting there enjoying his food.HAHAHA. ^_^ Ahwell...Overall it was fun. :)

2009-07-30T22:02:00.001+08:00

Just a short post...

CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW!TOMORROW'S GOING TO BE AN EXCITING DAY!
P.E = BADMINTON MANIA WITH KEITH!
AFTER SCHOOL OFF TO VIVOCITY CINEMAS TO WATCH HARRY POTTER! <3
TOMORROW'S GOING TO BE A CAM-WHORE DAY TOO! (I guess...) :)

2009-07-24T21:56:00.002+08:00

Wooha.Another day and another week has gone.Not a very bad week either. :) Feel rather accomplished.My art now looks more complete than ever!Yipee!Hahahaha.Just got to add more details and touch up.GAWD.&I don't feel so stressed out either. :) I'm actually feeling rather relaxed. O_O I think something's wrong.I shouldn't be feeling so relaxed...I should be anxious and fretting for prelims... :0 What the hell is wrong with me..?Hope I won't flunk my prelims...I'd be super devastated...It's going to be a repeat of last year's prelims...No thanks man!Hahaha.Guss I shall really start to sit down and study study study. :] Shall end here now...I SHOULD BE STUDYINGGGG. :D

2009-07-18T22:25:00.002+08:00

Hmmmm...It's been awhile. :) Life just seems to be getting better and better. :) I guess..Let me see...Last Sunday was Youth Sunday.Was Usher along with Noelle,Clara,Jim and Marcus. :) Real fun&slack!Haha.Sent cousin off to Australia after church. :) Chatted with BESTFRIEND&found out some stuff.Awwwww... :) Monday,Tuesday,Wednesday and Thursday went by in a blur of art,art,art and art. :) Friday's PE was really fun.Played badminton with BESTFRIEND.Kept making me run..Tiring but fun. :) Played with Mr. Ng too.Then helped to pack up. :) After that went for art and off to ECP! :) It was really fun.But sad I couldn't join in with the MCM.. :( Haha.Ohwell..BESTFRIEND actually ferried me over to Blue Lagoon for dinner with Kenneth and Jin Kiat. :) Cam-whored there. :) Really an enjoyable night.Although it was really short.. :) Hahaha.Then today was another rather enjoyable day.Had tuition with Audrey and after that had some bonding time with her over lunch and at the bus stop. :) Really glad that we can still talk about alot of things although we have gone our own seperate ways.LOVE YA AUDREY! :) Hahaha.Overall,I am a happy little girl. ^_^ LOTS OF LOVE!

2009-06-28T20:16:00.002+08:00

HEAL THE WORLD

There's
A Place In
Your Heart
And I Know That It Is Love
And This Place
Could
Be Much
Brighter Than Tomorrow
And If You Really Try
You'll Find There's No Need
To Cry
In This Place You'll Feel
There's No Hurt Or Sorrow

There Are Ways
To Get There
If You
Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Little Space
Make A Better
Place...

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For
Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care
Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

If You Want To Know Why
There's A Love That
Cannot Lie
Love
Is Strong
It Only Cares For
Joyful Giving
If We Try
We Shall See
In This Bliss
We Cannot Feel
Fear Or Dread
We Stop Existing And
Start Living

Then It Feels That Always
Love's Enough For
Us
Growing
So Make A Better World
Make A Better World...

Heal The
World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human
Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

And The Dream We Were
Conceived In
Will Reveal A Joyful Face
And The World We
Once
Believed In
Will Shine Again In Grace
Then Why Do We Keep
Strangling
Life
Wound This Earth
Crucify Its Soul
Though It's Plain To See
This World Is Heavenly
Be God's Glow

We Could Fly So High
Let Our Spirits Never Die
In My Heart
I Feel You Are All
My
Brothers
Create A World With
No Fear
Together We'll Cry
Happy
Tears
See The Nations Turn
Their Swords
Into Plowshares

We
Could Really Get There
If You Cared Enough
For The Living
Make A
Little Space
To Make A Better Place...

Heal The World
Make It A
Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are
People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For
You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If
You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For
Me

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

There
Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better
Place
For You And For Me

There Are People Dying
If You Care
Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

You And For Me(X11)

Aaaaahhh.Seriously cannot believe Michael Jackson is gone man.Just spent an hour on making a scrapbook of Michael Jackson.Feel so proud of myself. :) Going to bring it around me everywhere I go.Hahaha.Hmmm...Okay,nothing much to say le.Hahaha.Shall stop here now.Byeee

god is a Dj;

life is a dancefloor;

I am the music;

&I choose to be a happy type of music;

so I am going to be happy.

2009-06-27T21:06:00.002+08:00

A Tribute to MICHAEL JACKSON:

Even though to some of us,he was indeed
GONE TOO SOON.Leaving us,both BLACK OR WHITE all in disbelief.Even though HE'S
OUT OF OUR LIVES,MJ would want us to be HAPPY and to BEAT IT,the sadness we are
feeling in our hearts.At least we've got his wonderful music to turn to,to help
HEAL THE WORLD from all our grief.WE ARE THE WORLD and together,we shall always
remember MJ as the one and only KING OF POP!WE ♥ YOU MJ!

Hmm..I'm eating cornetto ice-cream right now.So it's kinda hard for me to blog.HAHA!I'm like using one hand to type and I have to keep going back to correct my mistakes!HAHAHA.Anyway,regarding the above tribute to MJ...I SERIOUSLY CANNOT BELIEVE THAT HE IS REALLY GONE!He has truly and really made a huge impact in our lives with his awesome sound and sleek dance moves. :) He will indeed be dearly missed by all of us.From Madonna to JT to Ne-yo to everyone and anyone else who knows who MJ is! :) HAHAHA.Kay,shall stop here now.Before I start ranting about MJ.Hahaha.

god is the Dj;

life is the dance floor;

we are the music;

I choose to be a happy music;

so from now on,I am going to be happy.

2009-06-26T23:15:00.004+08:00

Oh gawd...The saddest news I have ever heard today : MICHAEL JACKSON.THE ONE AND ONLY MICHAEL JACKSON!THE LEGEND!THE KING OF POP!HAS PASSED ON.1985 - 2009 He will always be alive in our hearts,always dancing in the moonlight.Everyone is going to remember him because of his music and his awesome dance moves,the most famous of them all : the moonwalk.At the age of 11,he started his music career with his brothers as the JACKSON 5.All in all,MICHAEL JACKSON WILL ALWAYS BE ALIVE IN OUR HEARTS AND WILL ALWAYS BE KNOWN AS THE KING OF POP!BECAUSE HE ROCK!MAY YOU REST IN PEACE,DEAR MICHAEL JACKSON! <3

Hmmm..Today was mummy's b'day.Woke up and went to J8 with family and couins they all for branch at Coffee Bean there.Yum.Then went to the zoo while daddy and mummy had theit own special time.Hahaha.So at the zoo,we walked to the Children Play Area and while everybody was minding their own business...I was on the phone with BESTFRIEND. :) Was suppose to go online at about 11 to chat with BESTFRIEND but couldn't.So I smsed BESTFRIEND and we chatted on the phone for an hour.LOL!After that played awhile at the playground there and left for aunty's house.Baked the cake,showered and then went online to chat with BESTFRIEND as arranged. :) Hahaha.But had to leave a bit the soon.But yeah.We both said our part so it was okay I guess. :) Went Suntec the Sizzlers there for dinner and we ate a hell lot of food man!Hahaha.Mummy was very happy too.So today was a HUGE success!Hooray!Hahahaha.Okay,end here now.HASTA LA VISTA! <3

I'M A HAPPY GIRL TODAY. :)

2009-06-25T17:00:00.002+08:00

Hmmm...It has been a while since I last posted.LOL.4 days,actually.So not so bad. :) Anyway,24/06 was loved man! :) Left for Plaza Singapura at about 10+.Met up with BESTFRIEND.Don't know who you are thinking but I can tell you you're wrong! :) Hahaha.So yeah.We met and BESTFRIEND already bought the tickets so we had a quick little breakfast and then went to catch the 11.20 Transformers 2 : Revenge Of The Fallen.It was really nice man! :) Then after that we went to watch Drag Me To Hell. :) That one was okay la.I did get freaked out a bit,but BESTFRIEND said it sucked.Hahaha.So after the movie,BESTFRIEND and I went to get takko balls and some callimari rings.Hahaha.Okay,more like BESTFRIEND did.Haha.But I got a bit out of the Callimari rings. :) Then BESTFRIEND and I walked to the Cathay and BESTFRIEND wanted to go catch another movie.Tsk tsk.3 movies in one day,no thanks.No money le.So yeah.I bought my B&J ice-cream!Yummy. :) After that we debated on where to go.BESTFRIEND wanted to go safra play pool or go play bowling.LOL.But I rejected them.I haven't find mummy's gift yet.So we decided to walk down towards Orchard. :) But along the way I spilt ice-cream on my shirt. :x So PS.The bottom had a hole and ice-cream was dripping down.GAWD!BESTFRIEND seriously got a shock man.Hahahaha.So BESTFRIEND and I ended up on a mission to get me a new shirt.Haha.So cute.We bought a "Who Came First?The Chicken Or The Egg?" shirt.Hahaha.So after that mission,it was time to look for mummy's present. :) So nice of BESTFRIEND to company me to look for mummy's present. :) Hahaha.Yeah,we went to The Cathay Cineleisure there&went to More Than Words to find mummy's present. :) Was planning to get mummy a monkey softoy.LOL.Then ended up getting her a cup with a Winnie the Pooh baby.Hahaha.All thanks to BESTFRIEND! :) So after that,BESTFRIEND was so nice as to actually walk home with me.Awwwww! :) I LOVE MY BESTFRIEND MAN!Hahaha.Spent some time slacking by my house there with BESTFRIEND and then we parted. :( Awwww..Hahaha.Nvm!I'll get to see BESTFRIEND soon!Going to chat with BESTFRIEND tonight later about something important.HAHAHA!All in all...

I LOVE MY BESTFRIEND!
&BESTFRIEND MADE ME A VERY HAPPY GIRL!
<3

2009-06-21T19:32:00.002+08:00

You broke my heart.I glued it back together and bandaged it to keep it
together.
But how long is it going to last..?Until all the bandages and
stitches and glue don't work anymore..?
How long more am I going to have to endure this..?
I don't know...
I just want to lie down and never ever wake up again...
Can anybody grant me just this one wish..?
Please....

Wooha.Today's FATHERS' DAY! :) Surprised daddy this morning. :) Skipped sunday school for it.Haha.Woke up at abour 9+ then made daddy breakfast,after that did mummy's and my siblings and I went in with our surprise.Hahaha.Guess what..?We all came out in the end.LOL.So yeah.That was pretty much all.Haha.Oh...I'm starting to fall sick I think.Having a major headache now. :) Still can smile..I think something's wrong with me.Hahaha.Shall end here now.Buh bye

2009-06-18T21:22:00.002+08:00

Let it go
Let it roll right off your shoulder
Don't you know
The
hardest part is over
Let it in
Let your clarity define you
In the
end
You will only just remember how it feels

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists and turns of
fate
Time falls away,
But these small hours
These small hours
Still remain

Let it slide
Let your troubles fall behind you
Let it shine,
Till you feel it all around you
And I don't mind
If it's me you need to turn to
We'll get by
It's the heart that
really matters in the end

Our lives are made
In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists and turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These small hours
Still remain

All of
my regret
Will wash away somehow
But I cannot forget
the way I feel
right now

In these small hours
These little wonders
These twists
and turns of fate
Yeah, these twisted turns of fate
Time falls away
Yeah, but these small hours,
These small hours
Still remain

Yeah, oh they still remain
These little wonders
All these twists
and turns of fate
Time falls away
But these small hours
These little
wonders
Still remain

(^_^) ( . _ . ) (- . - ) zzz

Gawd...I've got millions of emotions stirring around me right now.I'm feeling happy,sleepy,sad,missing ***...Hahaha.Ohwell..Tml going to take my mind off of it all man! :) Hahaha.Shall end off now. :) Feeling satisfied now.I guess... :)

2009-06-15T18:53:00.002+08:00

You broke my heart.I glued it back together and bandaged it to keep it
together.
But how long is it going to last..?Until all the bandages and
sticches and glue don't work anymore..?
How long more am I going to h ave to endure this..?
I don't know...
I just want to lie down and never ever wake up again...
Can anybody grant me just this one wish..?
Please....

Ugh.Feel so sick with myself..Why can't I just get this over with..?I don't care if he's like your own Edward.Screw the whole stupid Edward delusion!Forget about him already!Do you honestly think he's the one for you?I think not..C'mon!It doesn't take a genius to see that he isn't the one.That he's been toying with you.Although you'd like to think that he does repriprocate the same feelings as you.Damn it all.They're all lies!Can't you see that?All lies...Stop living in that stupid fantasy world of yours already.Wake up!Snap out of it!You can't carry on like this!Get a grip and get a life.If not,I'll take tha damn life away from you...

2009-06-14T16:48:00.004+08:00

Hmm..Slacked a lot today.Don't know why but I was feeling uber tired and I slept till 10+..?Gosh.Skipped breakfast as usual and started reading New Moon. :] Movie's coming out soon ya know!Hahaha.Anyway,after that decided to clear my table.Gawd..It's like a rubbish dump.It's completely cluttered with books and papers.Haha.But if I think my table's a dump,wait till I see my wardrobe.Hahaha.It's a complete mess.Clothes are like strewn everywhere in my cupboard. :] What to do..?I've got a hell lot of clothes.Hahaha.When I start packing it again,it's going to be my 5th time this year. :) Hahaha.Got to find a way to prevent it from getting all messy again. :P Then after that went for lunch at united square.Hahaha.Now my cousins are over at my house playing tiao qi with my sister.LOL!Not bad,so young also know how to play.&&&all 5 of us are like chao da man!Hahaha.Sublings and I went kuching for kayaking and my 2 cousins went Bintan for some church camp. :] Hmm...Tonight daddy's coing home from Thailand and then we're going to Raffle's Town Club for dinner with uncle.Hmph.Late dinner tonight. :[ Ohweeeeell...Tml still need to go back to school.Damn.Don't feel like going.So early... :[ Argh.No choice.Gotta try to complete as much of my art work as soon as possible.Guess I shall be skipping lunch again.Gawd...This sucks. :[

2009-06-13T20:03:00.001+08:00

When you find yourself
In some far off place
And it causes you to rethink some things
You start to sense that slowly
You're becoming someone else
And then you find yourself

When you make new friends in a brand new town
And you start to think about settlin' down
The things that would have been lost on you
Are now clear as a bell
And you find yourself
Yeah that's when you find yourself

Where you go through life
So sure of where you’re headin'
And you wind up lost and it's
The best thing that could have happened
‘Cause sometimes when you lose your way it's really just as well
Because you find yourself
Yeah that’s when you find yourself

When you meet the one
That you've been waitin' for
And she's everything that you want and more
You look at her and you finally start to live for some one else
And then you find yourself
That’s when you find yourself

When we go through life
So sure of where we're headin'
And we wind up lost and it's
The best thing that could have happened
‘Cause sometimes when you lose your way it's really just as well
Because you find yourself
Yeah that's when you find yourself

Sealed with love <3

2009-06-05T13:52:00.002+08:00

Oh gawd.Last night's PCD concert rocked man!A last minute thing but it still rocked. :) Still feeling kinda bad though..Was suppose to stay back in school after english to study science with Keith..But then Jess called and invited me to join her as she had an extra ticket.So yeah...Mummy allowed so I went.Feel so bad... :( But the concert was great.Nicole is still as hot as ever.Poor Jessica(no,not my diva gfriend.the PCD girl.LOL!)hurt her back.Ouchies..! >_< So there was only four of them : Nicole,Melanie,Kimberly and Ashley. :] Cool..I remembered all their names.LOL!So yeah.Plus Jessica,it would be five.Hahaha.Used to to seven of them though.LOL!So anyway...They sabg quite a few songs.The crowd was wild man!They were all cheering and screaming and singing.LOL!&I was one of them. :D Jess did it too.Haha.Anyway...if I'm not wrong,they sang Doncha,Watcha Think About That,When I Grow Up,Stick With You,Halo,Elevator,Jai Ho,Bottle Pop,Hush Hush(I Will Survive) Remix,I Don't Need a Man,Wait A Minute and many more.The most memorable one was Stick With You.Amanda(some girl from Jess's school),Mong Yi,Jess and I had our arms around each other,swaying and singing to the music.I swear....I could have just cried on the spot man.I mean...Classic moment for me.Recently,have been going through a hell lor of shyt.What with school,tuition,class conflicts,bitches and whatever nonsense life throws at me...When I heard that song and sang my heart out with Jess,I just felt a wave of relief wash over me.I felt so glad that although Jess and I are no longer school-mates or neighbours...We're actually still as close as ever.&I am just oh-so greatful to her.I'm so glad that even though we have our own time zones,she's always there for me.I can always go to her when I need her girl power. :) Anyhoo...LOL.We took some pictures and I'm waiting for them!Hahaha.&today I'm leaving for Kuching. :( Going to miss my bfriends... :) Shall get a little something for my peeps. :) Hahaha.I love my circle of friends. :) Alright,I'm out!¡Adiós! ¡Hasta luego! :D

2009-05-28T17:16:00.003+08:00

Went to school for Chinese only.Got back our report books too.One word - HORRENDOUS!Gawd.I completely flunked my maths,scince and chinese.Combine improved a little.Passed only my english and part.Pathertic man.Total I've got like 40+ points..?Shyt man.But on the bright side,I don't need to go for S2E.&back onto the gloomy side,I'm not going to touch the comp at all.From now on,I am not going to use the comp.No matter how badly I want to. :( Must do well fro Prelims and then ace O levels. :) I can do it!Quoted from someone famous : IF YOU CAN DREAM IT,YOU CAN ACHIVE IT. :) Hahaha.Gonna make momma and poppa proud.Hahahaha.Shall end here now.CIAO! <3

YOU'RE THE NEW CLASSIC
YOU'RE THE PYT
STANDS FOR PAID,YOUNG AND TAKING ON THE WORLD FROM THE DRIVER'S SEAT
YOU'RE CLASSIC,FANTASTIC
WHEN YOU'RE ON THAT FLOOR
YOU BRING THE BEAT BACK
COME ON LET'S SEE YOU DO THAT!
:)

2009-05-24T21:48:00.002+08:00

Heehee.Today was great. :) After church went to Plaza Singapura to watch Night At The Museum 2 with Keith. :) Must watch man!Haha.I know O level chinese is coming soon and I should be studying for it.BUT...!I seriously needed a break so I took the opportunity to relax and let my hair down. :) So yeah.Waited for Keith at the Daughby Gaught MRT control station and then we went to get his Tako Balls.LOL!Then we bought the tickets.Man was it seeling out fast!But we still managed to get our tickets. ^_^ Then after that we were suppose to go watch Monsters Vs Aliens...But I didn't want to watch.Hahahaha.So cute.He kept saying please but I kept saying no.Hahaha. :) So we walked around PS aimlessly.LOL!Went to the basement and he bought another box of Tako Balls.Was suppose to share with him but didn't feel like eating,so I just ate one. :) Then I bought Yummi Yougurt Ice-cream!YUM~! :) After that went to the arcade but didn't play anything.Hahaha.Then I think we went to Action City.LOL.Played with some of the stuff there then we left.Hahahaha! :) Overall,I'M A HAPPY LITTLE GIRL. (^_^) <3

2009-05-22T17:41:00.003+08:00

Haha.Thought the picture was rather cute.So I uploaded it here. :) Sweet right?Hahaha.Anyhoo...Life seems better now a days.Mummy and daddy seem to be so much more tolerant now a days.Kinda scary,ya know.But ohwell...It's nice.Daddy and mummy not so strict anymore.Going to have to study hard and get good grades to prove to daddy and mummy that I can do it and make them proud. :) Hmmm..Today was rather slow.Hahaha.Had MT then art.GAWD.So dying man.It seemed so much easier when I first started.Suddenly it's N level all over again.Argh.But luckily I had Keith with me to help me.Hahaha.He was my motivator.Everytime I do art until I just feel like throwing the board out the window and dumping everything in the bin.Hahaha.But Keith told me to relax and he played some slow songs from his phone for me to listen to.To calm my nerve.Hahaha.So nice of him. :) Anyway,after english slacked awhile in classed then went for art.Well,I did.Keith went to play bowling at Safra with his family.Hahahaha.Tml gotta go for dental.Then it's 4 hours of tuition. :( O level Chinese coming soon.Need to do well.Going to aim for an A1 or A2. :) Musy JY.Then after that need to do Maths tuition homework.Revision on Vectors.Surprisingly,when I did it during tuition,I could manage. :) So was Matrices.But there were a few mistakes here and there. :) So maybe topic wise,I am okay.I just need to strengthen them and then doing exam papers will be a breeze for me. :) Wow.I'm actually being very optimistic about this.Hahaha.Guess everything's starting to work out well for me after all. :) &speaking of things working out,since a ertain something sin't workin gout for me,I'm letting it go.&about time too.LOL!Gotta start focusing on my studies,no more getting distracted. :) I am so going to ace my O levels!Hahahaha.Sound so confident...Is that good?LOL.Kay,shall end here now.Ciao! <3

2009-05-21T21:36:00.002+08:00

Ahh...I think I'm falling sick.Chest feels very itchy,I think I've got phlem stuck inside.Argh.&today I got a terrible headache after PE.Shyt man...&we found out that in our class of 29 only 5 people passed.24 out of 29 got all F9 or E8 or whatever shyt.GAWD.&there are some of us who need to so Victor Owyong.Argh.Lim Seng Heng needs to be seen too.So damn dead mannnnn~!Audrey and I were damn moody la.Cried a tinie weenie bit after that too.Heng,K wasn't there of he's sure to ask alot of questions and call me silly... :( I'm crying over such a "trivial" matter.Ah crap.Don't know h ow am I going to break the news to my parents.They are going to be so disappointed with me.Hope they can see things like Mr Ow.He said "I DON'T CRE ABOUT YOUR MID YEAR RESULTS AT ALL.WHAT MATTERS IS YOUR O LEVEL."Hmmm....Seriously can't wait for MT O level paper to come.1st June finish le,2nd JUne rest.3rd June go for English O Level Seminar,4th June rest again.5th June until can't remember when going to Kuching with Jessica's (minus Jessica) for a little holiday fun. :) We're going KAYAKING! :D Hahahaha.Yay.Kay,shall end here now. :)

2009-05-15T21:41:00.002+08:00

"We were given: Two hands to hold. To legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find."

Hmmm...Well,this whole week sucked.At least for the moment.Got back our mid-year papers.Seriously suck man.I failed like...everything..?All my subjects are like F9 or E8..?Like WTH.Don't even dare tell my parents..So I planned all my tuition schedual le.I am so going to regret it.Your eyes are sure to pop out too...Let me see.Monday and Friday I have Humanities Extra Lesson.Tuesday and Satuerday I have Maths and Science Tuition.Wednesday and Friday is for Art.So my only free day is Sunday.Nice right..?But that is just next week.The following week,everything this the same.Only Monday,Thursday and Friday have Mother Tongue Extra Lesson.Damn...So I'm going to relax while I can.Tml going to have GNO with Jessica!Whoop-de-dooo!Hahaha.Going to watch The ramen Girl. :) But first we have a dinner to go to.LOL!A little gathering for the people from 24 @ Newton Road.Hahaha.Miss the good old days man.Sigh...But after than must cheong studies already.Damn..1st June is Chinese Prelims already I think.So fast la.After that is "O" Level le.Gawd!TAnyway,today Keith taught Tiara and I how to play Chinese Chess..LOL.First he taught me how to play Tai Ti.At least refresh my memory la.Then now he's teaching my Chiese Chess.Hahaha!How nice. :) Argh...My eyes are feeling so damn heavy.Guess I shall go to La La Land now.Or then again,maybe I'll just stay up a little longer. :) Ciao!

" If you love something, let it go. If it comes
back to you, its yours forever. If it dosent, then it was never meant to be."

2009-05-10T20:28:00.003+08:00

Well,guess I've decided to use the comp after all. :) Hahaha.Today was fun man.LOL!In church la.We were going for sunday classes and noelle and I saw this packet of snacks filled with kit-kats and Reese's.Haha.&we kept eating in class while the teacher was teaching.Heh heh.Then after class Marcus and oh-snap-I-can't-remember-his-name-right-now came down with hteir hands full of kit-kats and Reese's.LOL!So we ate and ate and ate.Man was it yummy!It's been awhile since I last ate chocolates man!Chocolates are the bomb! :D So yeah.After that we started chit chatting and what's-his-names suddenly said "do you know if your hand is bigger than your face,you're stupid..?"I immediately knoew what they were going to do so I just smiled at them and Constance put her hand to her face and Marcus whacked her h and and she hit her own face.Hahahaha!Damn funny la!Then what's-his-name said he knows another one.He said"let's do the wave.come one,all hold hands.(points to me)you start the wave okay?....Maybe not.Ashley,you start."So we did the wave and when it reachced'what's-his-name,he slapped ashley right in the face and he got stunned!For a moment his face was like 0.0!Hahahaha!We were all laughing our asses off man!LOL.Anyway,putting aside the jokes.Time to get down to business. :)

A message to mummy dearest(although I know fully well you won't be able to see this) :

Dearest Mummy,
thank you for raising up the three of us so wonderfully.I know it is hard for you to put up with all our crap and argueings all the time.But really,thank you mummy for putting up with all our crap.I know I am the oldest amoung the three of us but I am forever making you and daddy worry about me.Sorry,mummy.But I am 16 going on to 17 now.I promise you that I will grow up and learn to take care of myself.Then you won't have to worry so much about me anymnore. :D All in all,thank you mummy for loving us oh so unconditionally!WE LOVE YOU! <3

2009-05-09T22:17:00.002+08:00

Another day without you with me
Is like a blade that cuts right through me
But I can wait
I can wait forever
When you call my heart stops beating
When you're gone it wont stop bleeding
But I can wait
I can wait forever

Hmmm...Because I'm not planning to use the comp tomorrow.I shall take the opportunity to wish all the mothers out there a very...

HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!

2009-05-08T17:28:00.003+08:00

Well...It's now safe for me to say...EXAMS ARE OVER!At least for now.This is just the prelims and I screwed up my practical exam today.Hell...But I managed to salvage it.Thanks to the power of theory.Hmmm...Anyway,yesterday went to TP with mummy and man did we do a hell lot of shopping...First I bought 2 new Pjs!Haha.Lame,I know.But come on...!It's like the Little Ms and Mr!Hahaha.I got another one but it's some japanese show.Real old.Hahaha.Then went to get my mascara.Heh heh.Run out already.Or is it dried up..?Whatever.I got new ones and they rock!LOL!It came with a free lip-gloss! :) I sound so stingy.LOL!Then went to buy some of mummy's stuff and then I saw this pair of shoes that seriously reminded me of Pocahontas but a little more modern.HAHAHA!Bought that and then saw a bag that totally matched the shoes but mummy thought it was too much.Hahaha.The bad and the shoes may totally go off.Haha.Then I saw this set of clothes that I (sad tyo say)...SIMPLY MUST HAVE!Hahaha.It's suppose to be a tank top,but I got the top that you're suppose to tie around your neck. and this totally awesome short skirt! :D It was so damn nice mannn!Then mummy saw this top that once again I simply love and must have...It was a orange shirt with a hoooddd!Boom babe!LOL!I think I'm becoming s shop-a-holic..Oh wel.... :) It's just so damn nice!Can't wait to wear it out!Hahaha. :) Hmmm...Suddenly,I'm missing my best friend...Gawd.So now I'm moody...Ugh.Shall end noe...TTYL.

2009-05-05T20:12:00.002+08:00

Woohoo!3 down,5 more to go. :) This year's mid-years went surprisingly well. :) Okay la.Not well but I think it was kinda managable. :) If possible,I would love to think that I can pass my mid-eayrs this year.How many points am I going to get..?I have no idea.But I guess it's good to know that I can pass my mid-years.Especially my maths.If I can pass my maths,I'll be the happiest girl ever man!Hahaha. :) Tml's Physic's paper.Was cheoing for it during tuition today la.Haha.Hopefully it'll help me for the paper tml.Coach was like "gaurantee tomorrow's paper you will do well arh?"Haha.I was like "no gaurantee and no promises.But it should be okay".Hahahaha!Anyways,went home earlyyy!Haha.Slacked at home then wemt to have lunch at United Square after picking up siblings from school.Had subwayy(eat crap,so somebody will say..)!Hahahahaha!Then went to popular to buy my file.Old one dying already.Hahaha!Then I found my book!HUNTED!My hunt for the Hunted is finally over!LOL! :) &I just realized that I've got a few really fav songs that keeps playing in my m ind.Hahaha!Damn nice!Can have my own countdown.Hahaha.Shall give it a shot here. :)

1. More Than Me - Jordan Cahill
2. LOVE - The League
3. Oooh Ah Soungs - Colby Odonis
4. Roll The Credits - Paula Deanda
5. How Do You Sleep - Jesse McCartney ft. Ludacris

Hahaha.That's all so far,I guess. :) Guess I'm in a pretty good mood today.Hahaha.Suprisingly.. :D Hahahaha.Kay,shall end here now.Ttyl! <3

2009-04-29T19:23:00.002+08:00

:) Hmm...What shall I talk about today...Hahaha.Mid-years are just round the corner.Next week to be exact.But ya know what..?I'm feeling super duper relaxed... O_O Hence the super duper weird decision to use this font for this post.Hahahaha!Oh gawd..I'm feeling high.LOL!I feeel goooood! :) I think this song made me feel so much happier today. :) GIVE ME YOUR LOVE.GIVE ME YOUR HEART,AS BRIGHT AS THE MOON AND AS DEEP AS THE SEA, :) Hahahaha.Daddy and mummy seem to be in a good mood too!Hahaha.Guess things are finally taking a much much better turn now.Hahaha.&&&I got my INKSPELL at last!Hahaha.Went to OnePage after school today to buy.Feel so happy.Then came home slacked and started to wrap my books.Gotta protect all my faourit books.Hahaha!Twilight is so damn torn,my heart is broken into two...Hahaha!Guess I'd better be careful with who I lend my book to. :) Kk,shall end now.Dinner timeeee! :)

2009-04-26T17:37:00.002+08:00

Boy in the beginning,
The beginning it was me and you
I was Bonny and you were Clyde
And we were running,
We were running for the end, we knew (R, roll the credits)
But then in the middle,
In the middle you went and changed the script
Took a pencil and erased my happy ending
Instead of loving you, I feel so sick

I know I'm being all stupid and idiotic now,but I'm letting my heart rule over me again.Can't help missing him.I should stop and concentrate on my studies now.Crucial year now,but I really really really can't stop thinking of him.I thought that I've finally gotten over him.A little too easily,so I thought.Too easy.Almost impossible.&I was right.I was just fooling myself.I've not gotten over him.It's true,I have gotten control over the green monster.Tamed it and locked it up properly.But there's another monster in me.The love monster.It's pathetic.Well,maybe that's just what I am.I'm a pathetic little girl.Falling so hard for a guy.It's despicable.An embarrassment.Just thinking of it makes me sick.But if that's how I feel,why doesn my heart do a little skip whenever I see him or think of him?All the times we spent together.All the fun we had together.Both of us going through some shyt together.Well,mostly me.But he was always there for me.Always there to cheer me up.Yeah,we started of as acquaintances to classmates to schoolmates to friends to god-brother and god-sister to best friends.May sound like I real nice sequence but it's not as nice as it sounds.People will always give you the two-of-them-are-together look or the-two-of-them-are-such-a-cute-couple look or even worse,the she's-so-not-good-enough-for-him look.Seriously,it's like WTF.Gawd.Don't know why I'm talking about this.Guess it has been bugging me for awhile and I just needed to rant it out.Whatever.I'm done here.Bye

2009-04-25T21:38:00.002+08:00

Heyhey.Just saw my blog post from a few days ago.Guess I was just being a stupid,idiotic paranoid little girl.Talked to Audrey about it and have decided to let things be.I'm not going to bother about it anymore.&I guess life is so much better now.Now that I'm not experiencing any green monster.Guess I'm finally getting a hold of myself.Ever since I wrote that little esssay on Jealousy for english,I kinda learnt a little lesson while searching it up. :) So now I guess it's save to say I am green monster free.Hahaha.Anyway,recently some stuffs happened at home and I'm glad that everthing's okay now.Like phewww.&our mid-years are due two weeks time.Like holy shyt!I'm so not prepared for it!Did one maths paper2 today and man do I suck.Okay,I managed to do a few questions 0on my own.Some I just needed a little reminding.So I guess my maths over-all is okay. :) Which is good,I guess.I may be able to pass my maths this time round.As for my combine science...Sad to say,my chem is terrible.Gotta work on it.Physics still not so bad.But I still gotta work on it.Sigh...Btw,I'm planning on cutting my hair. :) Asked around about how I should cut it.Keith said dont.LOL.But fringe is okay,I guess.Say cut bangs..Worried I'll look lik some china doll.Haha.Nvm,shall ive it a shot. :) Will ask mummy to cut for me.Mumy's the best :) Speaking of hair...I haven't bathe yet.Hair looks damn freaking oily mannn!Shall go shower after this.DAMNNN~

2009-04-17T19:11:00.002+08:00

Wow... It has been 13 days since I last posted. Haha. Well,the past 1 week plus was not too bad. Had our last 4 trainings before SYF and it was great man! We got silver! :) &our mid-year chinese paper is tml. Like WOW. Soon it's going to be our "O" Level paper. W-O-W. Hahahaha. Anyhoo... Moving on to today. Well,today I was a rather pissed of little girl. Shan't talk about it. Gawd. Don't know what's wrong with people now a days. Can't they just stay where the fk they belong? Stop ruining the status quo. STICK TO THE STATUS QUO MAN! Although it's not really about your satus. But stick to where you belong! Don't try to join a group and think you'll be acepted just like that! If you're not happy with YOUR clique,then too bad! Go solve your problem with them! Don't run away! Ahhh...Whatever. Even though I'm a little affected by that,today was still great I guess. Hahaha. Woke up with the flu this morning,going to have a sore throat soon. :) Slept in school in the morning. LOL! Thanks to Keith for helping me carry my bad this morning,was real tired and energy-less. Hahaha. Then yeah,everything was rather boring. Free,watched Keith play DjMax.Then went for art. Oh-hoooo. Free after art was hilarious man! After Keith's and my round one of food with Aisyah and Tiara, Russell and Jin Kiat joined us while Keith had his round two. LOL. Also,thanks Jin Kiat for the treat! Hahaha. So yeah. We were eating and then we were talking about some topic I can't seem to remember now. Then all of a sudden,we were talking about s**. Hahahaha! All thanks to Russell... It was damn funny la! We were talking talking talking and suddenly, we were like why-are-we-talking-about-s**..? LOL! Damn funny. Then after school had dance photo taking. Woohoo! Had exco photo shoot man! LOL! An extra photo to buy. Hahaha. &&&&they won't let us let our fringes down... Damnnnn. Hahahaha! Ohwelll... Shall end here now. Gotta get ready for CL tml. &tuition with Audrey tml! :) Shall talk to her about our little class issue...Sigh. They are in dire need of being independant and more responsible...Tsk. Syonara

2009-04-04T20:45:00.002+08:00

“A boy is a magical creature, you can lock him out of your workshop, but you can’t lock him out of your heart. You can get him out of your study, but you can’t get him out of your mind.”

Hmmm... Well,this whole week wasn't quite as pleasant as usual... Got countless of scoldings and I have become more withdrawn. I have become rather emotionally weak too. Once a scolding comes flying my way,I'd cringe and tears will start welling up in my eyes. But it's thanks to friends like Keith and Kenneth who with the simplest of things can cheer me up instantly like magic. With them,all sadness and pain is gone. With them,I feel nothing but joy,peace and happiness. It's crazy. I know,feeling all of these from two BFs who are guys. But so what? I love them just they way they are? I'm just so glad that I can count on them when I need a shoulder to cry on (not literally) or just need a little cheering up. But sometimes,a girl just needs another girl's company and that where Jessica come in. But it's sad to say,we're both totally lost in our own time zone. It has been 3mths since I last saw her and I miss her like hell. I've got so many things to tell her. Okay,maybe not. I just long for her company. Really miss all the old days. Spending time together after school playing and chatting just about anything under the sky. But I guess things have changed. Just hope our friendship will remain the same. But besides Jess, I'm really glad I've got friends like Audreyand Aisyah too. I think without them,I would be super emo from keeping some things locked up in me,although I can tell Keith practically everything. But there are days where I need a girl and just pour everything out. Although things have chanegd between Audrey and me,I'm really glad that she's still here by my side somehow for me to rant out to her on some things in life. And Aisyah,she and here bimboness. Even in my moodiest of days,she can cheer me up with her bimboness. Hahaha. So so so so glad to have them as friends. MY parents may not understand it but I do and it's kinda hard for me to explain it too. If they were to ask why can't I treat them the way I treat my friends. There are really no words to explain it. &really. Thanks a million. Love you guys! I seriously don't know what I'd do without you. Mushy,I know. But it's from the bottom of my heart and if I had a chance to start all over again. I'd choose you guys to be my FABULOUS group of friends and we'll stay that way till we're grey and old. :)

2009-03-25T20:24:00.002+08:00

O_O Wow.It has been 6 days since I last posted.Nice...Guess I shall update now.Hmmmm...Well,this whole week of school has been terrible.Okay,not to bad la.Just real tired.School,dance,tuition.A big whirlpool of it.Crucial year this year too.Mid-years are like in 2 months time.So not prepared.Got back out report books today.It's like WTH.Flunked my scinces.Chemistry pulled me down.Pass my maths ( O_O I got a B4!),english,chinese,combine and art.All C6.Nice right?So if you see my report card,you'll see C6,C6,B4,F9,C6,C6.Nice right?Gawd.So gotta focus on my studies.But how?SYF lehhhh~!Damnnn..After 14th April then can concentrate.Crap man!Hope I do well for this mid-year. :( Shall end here now.STUDY STUDY STUDY!May not update anymore after today.Shall see first.Bye!

2009-03-14T22:15:00.002+08:00

I recognize the way you make me feel
It's hard to think that
you might not be real
I sense it now, the water's getting deep
I try to wash the pain away from me
'Cause you're everywhere to me
And when I close my eyes it's you I see
You're everything I know
that makes me believe
I'm not alone

Well,today was rather depressing.. At least for the flag day event. This morning woke up feeling rather happy then had some family time at the Singapore Flyer. After that rushed off the QMSC to get ready for the flag day. Keith,Kenneth,Charis,Pamela,Latonia,Yan Ru and I all left for Holland Village(as suggested by Mr Chan). Have to say,the people there were ratehr nice. A few donators came and donated without us even asking. :) That kinda boosted our little confidence and made us strive to get more money for QMSC for the elderlies. But most of the donators donated only because of the kids who wanted the little stickers. Haha. So cute. Then at aout 3 we left for Maxwell Market Place. Pam said she went there last year and got quite a lot of donations. So we took 196 there and went to Mawell. Felt so sleepy and everyone had a nice rest on the bus. Then when we reached Keith,Kenneth and I went off to the Chinatown area,the one near the pretty giant temple. Not alot of people donated,only 3 people donated if I'm not wrong. All three of us were so demoralized that we actually didn't quite bother asking the people to donate. But we still tried,we gave it a shot at the MRT station there.Once again,I only got 2 people to donate. How pathetic. I was just about to give up with Keith and Kenneth came and said the best thing to do now is either give up or to go somewhere else. So in the end we went to Clementi. Went to their new shopping mall,the 2 of them went to find Irene for donation. LOL. Then went to the little area up front,a little like a plaza and started to "beg" for donation. Not too bad la. Things got slightly better there. A lot more people were willing to donate. First few donated really made our day. So cute. Keith and I were "re-sticking" our tins with stickers,easier for donators to take. We were just getting ready to ask for donation when this little girl walked up to us with a 50cent coin and donated to Keith. Well,I kinda pointed at him so she gave him. :) Then the brother came with another 50cents and gave it to Keith. &the youngest of them all,she seriously made up cheer up. So cute! The daddy gave her 50cents also and asked her to put it into the tin,Keith bent down so she could drop the coin in. She hesitated abit don't know want to give or not. In the end she decided not to. Then the mummy ask me to try. She also hesitated,want to give then decide not to. Then I say "I give you 2 stickers,you five me your money." The mummy laughed man. Hahaha. Then they all say bye-bye. The little girl uber cute,the mummy say "smile and say bye!" She smiled her sweetest smile and we all laughed and went AWWWWWW! Hahaha. That was the only thing that brightened up our day la. Lol. Then we got serious and really started to get more donation. We kept trying until 5.30+ and along the way we saw Stella. Learnt that she gave back the tin at about 4+ I think. Tsk tsk. Then after that went back to find Irene. Hahaha. OKay,Keith and Kenneth did. I just stood one side and watched them talk to the guy tending the store adn took a look at their PSP accessories. :) Maybe one day will go there and personalize my PSP. Hahaha. Mine is the same as my sis's one. :( Don't like,want to be different. Haha. Then took the MRT back to QMSC and gave back the tins. Wooooh! We were freeeeee~! Haha. Then waited for daddy to come. Lol. Keith actually offered to stay back and wait with me but I said it was okay,my daddy was going to take awhile. So he and Kenneth headed back to the MRT station and went home. LOL. When daddy came,we went to Novena for dinner and Fish and Co. Woooh. So going to get fat mann. Better exercise during the hols. Thinking of going swimming in the mornig or maybe go running. :) Speaking of running,I realized I'm more of a sprinter than a long-distance runner. Tsk. No wonder I can never pass my 2.4. My Shuttle-run still okay,not too bad. Hahaha! Shall train myself during the hols. Lol. OKay,I think this is long enough. Gosh. Shall end here now. Buh byeeee~!

( P.S : JESSE MCCARTNEY IS SO HOT! :D )

2009-03-13T22:34:00.002+08:00

Hmmmm...This year's service learning was okay I guess.The fact t hat I'm with the people who were in the same service laerning as me last year.People like Charis,Pamela and Keith.All of us went to Cambodia to spread the love and this year we're spreading it in singapore at QMSC. :] First day we went there and took some pictures and videos.Helped out there,interacted with the old folks there.After the whole thing had some fun somewhere. :) But then things changed after that.Oops.Then second day went to school and started on our video making.Got damn pek check with the whole thing than gave up today.Knew I totally sucked at this media thing. :( Anyway,after today's session we went to vivo.LOL.Got some stuffs for tml's donation thing.Hahaha.Okay,more like Keith and Kenneth.Hahahaha.Don't ask.LOL!&today we were suppose to watch COMING SOON.But didn't.Stayed till 3+ to finish the video. T.T Okay,Keith did.Kenneth and I waited for him.Didn't help cause I would only make things worse.What with me being blur and all... =.= Ohwell....Nothing to say already.

2009-03-08T14:57:00.002+08:00

Oh, you won't see me break
Won't make that mistake
Oh no I'll just walk away
There too much at stake right now
I go on and on
Singing this song about you
And that's what's wrong with this song
Can you feel it?
In the way I look at you
Boy, can you hear it?
I'm crying out inside
I really want to love you
Be near you
You're a million miles too far

LOL.Just checked out some stuffs on Singapore Poly.They don't have the course I want but am quite interested in 2 courses.Not sure how I'll fair in it but I guess it's worth the shot.I guess... :] Anyway,yesterday went to watch MARLEY&ME.One word...SUH-WEET! :) Overall it was nice la but it's damn sad the way Marley died.I cried until I got a headache.Mummy got a shock when she saw me.My eyes were all puffy and my face was red. :( How nice.So after that went home to shower then went for a 24 @ Newton gathering. :) MIss all the people there man.All kids and adults.Really miss the bond there.Awww mannnn~!Nostalgiaaaa~! :( Hmph. Then mon and tues last day of school.Wed to fri si service learning.Then is the one week of break.But ya know what..?I'm not having one.My hols are filled with tuition.Damn...&apparently,I haven't quite recovered yet.From my little migraine-headache thing...I stopped eating the medication on friday and on sat after the movie and the crying,the headache came back.SO now I"m feeling kinda giddy and seriously feeel like puking. :( Gotta hug my mickey mouse hand.So dying here...Byeeeee

2009-03-06T21:49:00.002+08:00

I WAS BORN TO TELL YOU I LOVE YOU! ♥

Haha.First of all,I changed my blog skin!Hahaha.Inspired by Secondhand Serenade. :) Kinda slacking today. Sigh...Next week service learning starting soon.Mon school,Tues some people wil MIA then Wed local people start service learning.Hahaha.Doing video for QMSC.Wed go there take picture video then the rest of the days stay in school and make the video.Hmmm...Maybe one of those days shall go and catch a movie.Really need a break.Seriously feeling very tired.Cannot stand it anymore.Mid-years are coming soon and I am so not ready.Soooooo not in the state to study.Shyt man!Then that one whole week of holiday is tuition tuition tuition.SHYT!So going to die mannn~!But I got to buck up and pass my mid-eays then hopefuly excel in my "O" levels. :) &apparently,there was a FLAMING PEE(yes,you saw that right)meet up today.Hahaha.But I had dance so didn't go.LOL!Wonder how it went.Hahahaha!Heard they're going to watch WATCHMEN too.Hmmmm...Wonder if I should go watch COMING SOON. :) BUt I kinda want to watch DRAGONBALL EVOLUTION.Looks kinda interesting. :) Hahahaha!There are quite a few movies I wanna watch too.But can't remember the titles.Sigh...So many movies,so little time.LOL!Okie,shall end here now. Buh byee~! :)

2009-03-04T15:13:00.002+08:00

It might've hurt worse to hear you say:I'm leaving, goodbye.
But your smile still makes my heart sing yet another sad song.
I can't forget it,no,I won't regret it.
Cause I'm still in love with you.
We had fun under the sun.Thought it was okay
Thought you'd be my angel.I was so in love.
Then you went away,left my heart in two.
Left me standing here,singing all these blues..

Haha.Guess what..?I didn't go to school today! :) Still can be so happy,crazy right?LOL!Slept till 7.30 then wake up.Follow mummy go pick gramdparents up to being them go see doc.Then we went to Thomson Medical Centre see doctor.Apparently,what I have is so not migraine.Hahaha.Migraine has specific symptoms.Mine is just headache that is caused by flu/cough(I have that.Flu and sore throat),stress(I do feel alittle stressed now adays),irregular meals(Hahaha.I hardly ever eat),not enough sleep(I'm always having difficulty sleeping at night.Except last night.)Hahaha.So I have all the symptoms.Hahaha.So after seeing the doctor,had DeliFrance.Yummmm!After that ate my medicine. :) &guess what?I gave one of the medicine a new name.Hahaha.On the wrapper,it says NUROFEN.So after eating it,I said to mummy "MUMMY,THE NIU ROU FEN VERY NICE TO EAT." Mummy was like O.o?What's that?Hahaha.I told her to look at the wrapper and she saw the name and started laughing.Hahahahaha!Tml still don't feel like going to school leh...But there's PE..!But then there's dance after that...Don't feel like going...Also dunno if I can last or not.Sigh...Skipped chiense tuition today,too.In my pajamies now. :) Hahahaha.Slacked the whole day mann~! :) Woohoo!Hahahaha.Shall decide if I wanna go to school tml.Maybe will just go for class then come home and rest.But miss alot of dance training le... :( Crap.Shall see first. :) Shall end here now.Hahahaha.Buh byeeee~!

CAN'T YOU SEE JUST HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU?

2009-03-02T20:15:00.002+08:00

There are places I remember
All my life, though some have changed
Some have gone for the better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places had their moments
With lovers and friends
I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compared to you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more

Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
And more

I AM DYING...! >_<>

2009-03-01T17:53:00.002+08:00

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

Feeling uber sleepy right now.Had difficulty sleepin last night.Woke up feeling uber groggy with a song by Miley Cyrus playing in my mind.Spent the whole day without knowing I had a migrain until an hour ago.Took some medicine and feeling slightly better now.But feeling twice as groggy and I kinda gorged on some food just now. :( So going to gain back all the weight I lost earlier.Crap..&because yesterday I damn bored,I googled about dreams and a few sites pop-ed up.Kinda got what I was looking for and now I'm not really sure if I should follow what my dream is trying to tell me...Hmmm.Kinda stuck right now.Maybe I shall go confide in my diva-licious gf.Haha.Shall end here now.Buh byeee..

2009-02-28T16:18:00.002+08:00

Hmm...Have you ever loved someone so much that you actually dream about them every night?Well,I have. &apparently,I am a tinnie winnie troubled by it..Okay,not troubled.Just can't quite stop thinking about the dream.Hmmm...Shall try to brush it off.*sigh*&I just found out when COMING SOON is showing.It's coming out on the 12th of March.W-O-W.It's coming in 12 days time...Kinda wondering if I should go watch it.It's kinda alluring but scary..Just by watching the trailer makes my skin crawl.*shivers*Anyhoo..Woke up at about 7.30 this morning.Then played a few rounds of DjMax. :) Then opened my closet to find it in a total mess.Sooo...I threw out all my clothes and started packing it.Man,do I have a hell lot of clothes..! O_O But I managed to clear it all.Woooo~!Hahahaha.&tml is the 1st of March...SL will be starting soon. :] A little excited. I guess... =x Hmm...Ohwell,shall end here now.Uber bored.Buh byeeee.. :)

2009-02-27T21:35:00.002+08:00

♥Life In TechniColours

Woooh!TGIF! :) But sad la,I'll be spending my weekend studying. :) Going to do well for my O's.Hahaha.Anyway,about today. :) Had a talk by Mr OwYong at about 8.50 at the Lt.His talk was rather...Inspirational. :) Going to press on and never give up!Whatever life throws at me,I am going to meet it head on! :) &today spent majority of the time playing PSP.Hahaha!In art is was kinda like a challenge between Keith,Kwan Shyan and me.LOL!We were playing Squeeze.Hahaha.Hilarious man!Kwan Shyan keep getting beaten by Keith then he not happy.Keep saying "AGAIN!CANNOT LOOSE!"Hahahaha.After that he don't want to play le.Tsk tsk. :) Then after school excercised with kor.Woo!So happy.Keep this up and I'll be able to reach my goal.Hahahaha.&recently,I found out that some people know my little not-so-secret-secret. T.T How nice.&when they ask me about it,I kinda denied it.I said "OH,NO LA.THAT WAS LAST TIME..."&*SMILES* Sigh..I know it's so not true but at least that's what I'd like to believe.So here's how it actually goes : "OH,NOOO.THAT WAS LAST TIME." (AT LEAST THAT WHAT I'D LIKE TO BELIEVE IN...) :) Sigh...Now's not the time to get distracted by this kind of thing.But how can I not...?Have you heard what some people are saying?Take PJK for example.Everytime JK,Kenneth,Keith and I are together...He sees Keith and me real close and he'll go "I SERIOUSLY DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY THE 2 OF YOU AREN'T TOGETHER.YOU 2 ARE LIKE A MATCH MADE IN HEAVEN." &another he said "DO YOU KNOW THAT PAMELA IS PISSED AT THE 2 OF YOU? Keith and I were like why and he said(can't quite remember exactly what he said but roughly it goes like this): "SHE'S PISSED BECAUSE YOU TWO AREN'T TOGETHER.YOU KNOW HOW SOME GIRLS ARE WHEN THEY WATCH THOSE TV DRAMAS AND THEY SEE THAT 2 OF THE CHARACTERS IN THE SHOW ARE NOT TOGETHER.AND THJEY GET TOTALLY MAD AGOUT IT.THAT'S HOW I FEEL TOO." O_O Like holy crap..?Is that how everybody thinks..?At least those people whom I have friendly ties with...?Tsk...I bet if one day(not saying it will come. :] ) if we do get together,everybody's going to be like "FINALLY!" Tsk tsk.What's up with everyone man..?LOL!Ohwell...Shall end here now.Buh byeeee...

2009-02-26T18:57:00.002+08:00

Being with you is so
dysfuntional,I really shouldn't miss
you.
But I can't let you go.'Cause we belong together now.
We're forever united here
somehow.You've got a piece of
me.
And honestly,my
life wouls suck without you.

Sigh...Feel so moody right now.So not in the state to study or do anything.Totally loosing my voice [ :) ] and my flu is killing me.But ohwell.. :) I know being sick is not good but I kinda like it.Why?Because I can use it as a excuse to get out of things. :) For example,dance.Today seriously didn't quite have the energy to walk up to the fourth floor and dance let alone to mood to intreact with the people from Service Learning. :( Crap.Kinda really wish I had stuck to Malacca instead.Sigh...But then again...Hope I won't make an ass out of myself during Service Learning this year.Looks like it's going to be a total BS for me. :( Hmmm...On a lighter tone,or brighter light...PE today was progressive. :) Skipped 250 and did standing board jump.So badly wanted to run la. :( Disappointed..Hope next week will be able to run. :) &maybe will go out one day to watch COMING SOON with Keith. =x Uber nervoussssss~!It's like a horror show?And just watching the trailer already gives me a heart attack...I still have to watch the show..?Ahhhhhh crap.LOL!Shall end here now.Planning to go to school myself.Don't care what my parents say already.Crap.

2009-02-25T20:42:00.002+08:00

`Just another ordinary day.

Sigh.Today I am finally free from tests.Took our last test of the week today.Only one word to put it.HORRIBLE!Feel so damn sad about it la!Spent so much time on Vectors and when we did the test.. *POOF* All memory of Vectors went flying away!Like what the crap?So I only managed to do Tirgo and Matrice questions.But you know what?They're no good either. :( So going to flunk this maths test.Crap!Wasn't suppose to fail la!&speaking of failing,I am so flunking my Chemistry test.Once again,crap.First Chemistry test and I fail.Super crap!The only test I managed to pass was Physics.But they're not any better.So it's official,I'm so flunking my sciences for CA1.Ahhhhhhhhhhhh crappp.Better buck up and do well for all the up-coming tests.So far the only tests I have been passing is Social Studies.Don't think it'll do me any good.My History is so going to pull me down. :( Heard from Zhang LaoShi that the whole class passed our Chinese test.How nice.But it still didn't make my day any better. :( Anyway,whatever.What's done is done.All I can do now is study hard and make sure I pass the rest of the tests.*Sigh*But on the bright side.I went to watch Pink Panther 2 today with Keith,Kenneth and Jin Kiat. :) Went to vivo after art and bought the 4.55 show and went to KFC for lunch.Bought the Value Meal.Yummy.But after eating the Shrooms burger,I felt uber full.But I made myself finish everything.Haha.So no food wasted.For once.After that played a bit of DjMax and off to watch the movie.But before that saw the trailer to Coming Soon.Like holy crap?That show is too scary for my heart la!Watch the trailer only and I feel damn freaked out.Kenneth and Jin Kiat kept trying to scare me.Keith was too busy playing PSP.Tsk tsk.Over all,the show was nice.Uber funny.Then now home le. :) *Sigh* Tml PE,don't know if I should jump for joy or cry.*Sigh* After that have dance.Die.Better go rest early. :( Can I pon school...?Hmmmmm

Wanna spread my wings and get away from here.

Can't take the stress,my fortress has been taken away from me.

No longer the CCM. :(
Damn sadded.Miss being CM.*Sigh*

Wonder if it's possible to ask for it back. :(
Don't think so.

SIGH

2009-02-22T16:39:00.002+08:00

CHOCO CHOCO *CLAP* *CLAP*
CHOCO CHOCO *SLAP* *SLAP*

Feeling super duper bored nowww~!Don't quite have the mood to do anything.So far,the only thing I did was play DjMax on my PSP and blast some somgs on my phone.Spent some time sms-ing kor too.BUt now's he having tennis.His little girlfriend.Hahaha.Anyway,couldn't sleep last night.Don't know why.Kor say I should go see a doctor about it.*sigh*&because of the loss of sleep,I'm damn moody and have a freaking headache. :( Ah crap.Maybe tonight I'll go sleep early.robably about 8. O_O So early.Tml another day,a SUPER long day.So many lessons and there's CCA after school.Ahhhh crap!Wanna go home!But go home also study.&speaking of studying,I have 3 tests in a row next week.Starting Monday.Monday is Phys,Tuesday is Maths and Wednesday is Chem.How nice.Must try to pass it all man.Going to reach my goal.Get A2 for sciences and maths. O_O Damnnn.COme to think of it,it seems a little impossible.Crap.Nvm,I shall try my best and I am going to prove that I can get all As for my O level. :] OKay,shall end here now.Going to continue playing my PSP. O_O Buh bye!

xoxo

2009-02-21T17:41:00.002+08:00

1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you.I LOVE YOU.

Haha.A really cute song.1234.By PLain White T. :) Find it damn sweet.First person I though of was.... :) Censored.For me to know,for you to find out. :) No,for me to know and for you to never ever find out. :] Hahahaha!So going to dl this song.So nice! :) This song is so loved! <3

1,2 - 1 2 3 4
give me more lovin then i've ever had.
make it all better when i'm feelin sad.
tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
barely gettin mad,
im so glad i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy,
as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.
(i love you)
give me more lovin from the very start.
piece me back together when i fall apart.
tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.
make me feel good when i hurt so bad.
best that i've had.
im so glad that i found you.
i love bein around you.
you make it easy as easy as 1 2,(1 2 3 4.)
theres only one thing two do three words four you.
i love you.
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
and that's what i'll do.
i love you.i love you
(i love you)
you make it easy, its easy as 1234
theres only one thing two do three words four you i love you
(i love you)
theres only one way two say those three words
thats what ill do i love you
(i love you)
i love you i love you.
one two three four i love you.
(iloveyou)
i love you
(i love you)

xoxo

2009-02-20T22:11:00.002+08:00

I am such a tried little girl. :( This whole week was rather slow.But I had my PSP with me to pass the time. :) Got our target slips on wednesday. O_O I'm suppose to get a A2 for english and a B3 for the rest of my subjects. But ya know what?I aimed higher than that.Now I must try to get a A1 for english and A2 for the rest of my subjects.Ah crap!Hahaha.Monday and Tuesday is the longest day ever so I'm not going to say much.&I have no major parts in the SYF dance this year.How nice.Then thursday also nothing much.Ohh.Finished the whole SYF dance piece.Not bad,quite nice. :) Anyway,today after school was real fun. :) Shan't elaborate.Shall just say Keith and I spent some quality time with my PSP. :) My new darling!Hahahaha!After that,went for chinese tuition.7-9pm. O_O Feeling uber sleepy now.Ahhhh..!Shall go charge my PSP now and play it tml morning.BLEAH!Nights.

2009-02-15T15:58:00.002+08:00

*Some people laugh, some people cry
Some people live, some people die
Some people run, run into the fire
And some people hide, their every desire
Just look into my eyes, cause the heart never lies. *

Ahhh.Feeling damn sick today.Started feeling a little sick yesterday le.Abit of flu and sore throat.After the walk at Botanical Gardens,felt tired but didn't sleep.Only after dinner then on the way home konked out and fever came.Tried to sleep but felt super hot,had to sleep with both the aircon adn the fan.Damn!Then today fever gone but flu got a little worse,sore throat completely changed my voice.Made it even softer.Didn't go to church,sayed home and rest.But then now got headache.Crap.Flu+sore throat+fever=a big headache Tsktsk.Plus this whole combo is starting to get on my nerves.Can't think properly,alway doing things super slowly.Ahhhh!&when I cough,it hurts alot.Better bring a whole box of tissues to school tml.So going to need it. Argh!End here now.Feeling damn hot again.Going to shower and then stay under the aircon.Cannot stand the heat today.Grandpapa said I look super pale,must be careful.Scared ltr vomit.Bleah!Bye

2009-02-14T14:30:00.003+08:00

*I am just a girl trying to find a place in this world. *

Firstly,

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE.

Hope ya'll are having a better day then me. :] Seem to have woken up on the wrong side of the bed.Feel super tired and restless.Just felt like lying in bed all day.But too bad I was to follow the whole family out to Botanical Gardens.Couldn't even wake up la.Was like some zombie? T.T Crap.Walked to some pond and fed a pair of swans there.Felt kinda peaceful there.Fed the fishes and turtles there too. :] Then walked around.Went into the orchid mist house.It was really nice.BUt the only annoying thing was all the mosquitos.Kept getting bitten. :( Damn ass la.My whole leg had mosquito bites la and they were damn itchy.Crap.Anyway,after that rushed off for dental appointment.Changed it to green again. :] Then came home and shower,all the bites were starting to be less irritating.Then went for lunch and now everybody's asleep.Once again,I'm the only sole survivor. *sigh* &I'm seriously coming down real bad with flu and sore throat is slowly making itself at home in me. :] How nice.Whatever.Hope everyone's ebjoying their valentine's day.Btw,happy birthday Jin Kiat! :] Sorry I won't be going.Not quite in the mode to have fun,so I'm not going to go there and be a wet blanket.I'm just going to ruin everybody's day by going there with a solemn look.Plus,I don't really know how to get to your house. :] Hope you had fun! :] Happy playing your Guitar Heros World Tour.LOL.Okay,buh bye.End here now.Going to watch ANASTASIA and try to wind down.Hopefully,I'll be able to fall asleep. :]

*Maybe some pretty girls in your world.But excuse me,I could be your girl too.

Can you believe it?I'm in love with my best friend.

Don't know if I should laugh or cry.Sigh..*

2009-02-13T22:43:00.005+08:00

I don't know what I want,so don't ask me.Cause I'm still trying to figure it out.
Don't know what's down this road, I'm just walking.
Trying to see through the rain coming down,even though I'm not the only one who feels the way I do.
I'm alone on my own and I'm startin off.I'll be strong,I'll be wrong,but life goes on.
I'm just a girl trying to find a place in this world.
Got the radio on, my old blue jeans and I'm wearing my heart on my sleeve.
Feeling lucky today, got the sunshine.Could you tell me what more do I need and tomorrow's just a mystery but that's okay.
I'm alone on my own and I'm starting off.I'll be strong,I'll be wrong but life goes on.
I'm just a girl trying to find a place in this world.
Maybe I'm just a girl on a mission but I'm ready to fly.
I'm alone, On my own, and im startin off.I'll be strong,I'll be wrong but life goes on.
I'm just a girl trying to find a place in this world.

2009-02-13T22:07:00.003+08:00

FRIDAY THE THIRTEEN! :0

Cross country today was fun.Apparently,I wasn't the last few to come.Quite happy with myself. Ran with Audrey.Had to wear some bandana thing on my head as Civil Defence.Some say I look like Samsui Girl,Mdm Haliza said I looked like a Sushi Girl.Tsk.After that was the mascot.Can you believe it?5B won.Not bad not bad.Then went vivo with Keith,Kenneth and Jin Kiat.Wanted to go to the Jurong shopping mall,but it was closed. :( So go vivo lor.Took 143 from Jurong to vivo.Keith,Kenneth and Jin Kiat all fell asleep.I lasted for like 3/4 of the journey and my eyes started closing.But woke up a little when Kenneth put one of his earphones into my ear.LOL.Listened to his songs and then slowly started drifting to lala land.Sigh.SLept for like 5-10mins only then Jin Kiat woke us up,say reaching already. T.T Took quite some time for me to wake up.Everything in me as lagging la.Crap.Anyway,had Carl's Junior for lunch.Once again,I shared a double western burger,chilli fries and a cup of coke with Keith.Then after that went Challenger,Keith bought Jin Kiat his b'day present.Like WOW.It was a freaking Guitar Hero,World Tour...Cabbed to Jin Kiat's house and once again,WOW.His house is freaking nice.LOL.Watched them set up the whole set,then watched them play.Got to play 2 rounds and then I had to go le.Mummy was chasing me le. :( Wanted to stay longer.Sigh.It's been awhile seen I've been out with friends.Everyday it's just a whirlpool of school,dance,tuition,homework. Just these same few.&recently,dinner's been quite late cause I've been coming home late.
:( Been feeling very tired lately too.And I think I'm coming down with a flu and a slight sore throat. :( Seriously need a break from all of this soon.I haven't even stepped into a mall the past 1 month plus.Actually broke it today.Broke my record of not hanging out with my friends the past 1 month plus today too.Feel bad for not telling mummy and lying to her but I just needed a little break. :( &tml Keith(might not be going.But ohwell.),Kenneth,John,Aaron(I think I heard his name) and Jin Kiat are going to celebrate Jin Kiat's birthday.They asked me to join but I have dental tml and not sure if mummy with allow.I mean,come to think of it,I'm like the only girl again.Somehow I can communicate with guys better. O_O Not so much pressure I guess.I mean,guys will all just treat you as friends.Girls,well,sometimes they take one look at you and go GET AWAY GIRL.YOU AIN'T NO FRIEND OF MINE.Just because you're not good-looking enough to be their friend.And that's exactly how I feel.Feel kinda inferior to all the girl-friends I have. :( I'm no pretty like YiLin or Jessica,not very initiative like Jessica(won't really start a conver)..All in all,I'm nothing compared to all the girls out there.Renia may be rotound,but she's still pretty. :( Me?I'm nothing but some fugly little looking girl.Crap.Maybe I should just bury myself in my books and never emerge from them.Not ever.. :( Crap.I'm starting to feel damn moody again.End here now.Buh-bye.

2009-02-08T20:10:00.002+08:00

Main Points:
1. I am seriously damn lazy to type out in para now
2. Just got back from JB.Ps,not KL
3. Quite fun.Played alot with cousins.Hahaha
4. First time eat so much today.I'm so going to grow fat. :(
5. Sis watching camp rock.Singing too cool now? T.T
6. Just found out I have a darling. :) My little cousin. <3
7. I'm feeling excited tml.Got mass run! :D
8. Going to be running partners with Audrey
9. Tuesday going to S.A.M! Hooray
10. Okay,I'm done. :)

xoxo

2009-02-07T10:19:00.002+08:00

Points of the day :
1. I'm too lazy to type in para.Going to type in point form.
2. Going to KL ltr on.Will be back on Sunday.
3. Had to rush through my english homework.
4. Hope it's presentable.Want to pass my english.
5. Might be starting or attending hip-hop classes with Jess.
6. It's like on a school night?8.15pm at Bukit Merah.
7. Hope I survive.
8. Kenneth's and Desmond's birthday is this coming Monday.
9. Monday is also the day we're going to SAM.
10. Longer bus trip and can cam-whore.
11. Made a promise to myself yesterday I am never going to cry again.
12. Going to be strong.No more tears.
13. My official LIFE'S NEWEST ADDICTION list is done.
14. I'm officially addicted to running,Majolica Majorca cosmetics and all old school songs. :)
15. I'm done now.
16. Buh bye

xoxo

2009-02-06T22:09:00.002+08:00

TGIF.Today was a rather sleepy,restless,pissed,sad,teary,crying,sobbing,moddy,tired,grumpy friday.Woke up this morning damn restless.Seriously felt like turning off my phone and go back to sleep.But too bad,my body was slowly waking up already.Plus I'll need an MC if I skip school. So yeah,gathered in form class today.Took temperature.I got 35.9?I'm cold-blooded.Nice.Then the worst of the worst came.Cikgu scolded our class.She can't stand our class anymore.She kept scolding and scolding and my heart kept sinking and sinking.I was on the verge of tears,but I held back.I managed,but she yelled again and my barrier broke a little more.But Keith(my bf,my brother,my master,my shifu and siew mai)was around.And although he doesn't really know it,he kept my barrier up a little longer.And the bell rang!Yes!Saved by the bell.Walked to the chinese class with a super heavy heart and I tried to pretend like nothing happened.But I felt my barrier and heart breaking and when laoshi was talling us about remedial and who was going.I asked her something and she didn't answer,the barrier just broke and I cried.Like shyt.But thanks to Audrey,she cheered me up.Apparently,we're the only 2 emotional ones.Everyone could still laugh and play while the 2 of us could only cry. :( Argh.Did quite a bit of catching up with her. :) Talked about the old times and how we wish we could go back there.I even told her something I never told anyone.The reason why I was emotionally stronger was because I was metally occupied.Past 2 years,I was the chairman of the class.I had lots of responsibilities and lots to do.But I loved it.Because it took my mind off of thigs that troubled me and would make me cry.Even if I do cry,I would do it where nobody can ever see or know.But now that I am no longer chairman,my mind is free to roam around and am now emotionally weak because of my not-so-busy-mind. :( Sigh.So yeah.Kept crying in school,but I managed to pull through.But all the crying made me feel super sleepy.Plus,I stayed back to help with the class mascot thing.Did quite a fair bit and my weariness caught up with me.Started feeling super tired.AGAIN.Crap.Kept thinking of what Cikgu siad and I would start to tear again.Which was why I was rather quite.Seriously wish Mr.Sim would come back and really wish he would take our class again.He was the only one who could change our class.Really miss Mr Sim like shyt.Want him back as our english teacher and form teacher. :( Ah crap.Anyway,had tuition with Jess.Caught up with her too.Miss the old days man.So care-free.Anyway,she asked me to join a hip-hop class with her.It's every Monday at 8.15pm.WOW.Probably one thing to help take my mind off of things.Dancing.And in a form that I love. :) Although it's on a school night and I might be tired,at least it'll take my mind away from all that's happening.And I seriously gotta find a day to run and sweat out all my anger and frustration and sadness. :) Don't know how long more I can take.What with all the scoldings from the teachers.More like from Cikgu Samsiah to exact.She's real nice but real scary when she scolds.And she's real straight-forward too. :( If this goes on,I'll be crying everytime she scold us.Once again,crap. :(

05.02.09
Everything was fine.Except I started feeling super tired and head a splitting headache.Plus,I'm trying to cut down on my computer time.Hence,the dead blog.I'll more or less update only during the weekends. :) So Mr.Tan,don't ask me about my blog!Don't read it everyday!Read it only during the weekends! :) Thank you!That's all folks.Thanks! :)

xoxo

2009-02-02T20:58:00.002+08:00

Main points of the day :
1. Added some new stuffs to my latest addiction list. :)
2. Now I can't remember what it is.Crap.
3. Feeling super tired now.
4. Going to SP tml.Better bring cam to school or maybe I'll just use my phone. :)
5. I passed my first maths test and my first and second social studies test. :)
6. Was asked to do some weird test in school today.
7. Decided to become a vetenarian or animal rescuer.
8. Wonder if I'm suitable of not. :(
9. I'm in love with running now and I don't know why.
10.I'm ending here now.BYE! :)

xoxo

2009-02-01T15:04:00.004+08:00

(Life's newest addictions...)

Points of the day:
1.My life's newest addictions...Running/jogging and the make-up brand Mojolica Majorca. :)
2.My leg and arm muscles are aching. :(
3.Starting to train my stamina. :)
4.Going to Jess's house tonight. :) Miss my diva-licious GF.
5.I wanna lose more weight! :(
6.My ideal weight is going to be 55kg. :) That means I have 2kg to lose.
7.Now everybody knows how heavy I am.Tsk. :)
8.I'm being lame here.So I'm stopping right now.
9.BYE! :)
10. <3

2009-01-31T16:56:00.002+08:00

(Running the race of life.Stamina's improving.

Might be able to pass Napfa and cross-country this year.)

Hmmm...Woke up 7+ today.Got ready for morning walk.Or run I should say. :) Got to HortPark and walked the Forest Walk(again,more like ran) then to Henderson Waves. :) Damn shiok.Next time I go,I'm so going to walk/run from the Forest Walk to Henderson Waves to Mount Faber.I am so going to make sure I excercise every chance I've got. :) If possible,I'll try walking the Hilltop Walk,Canopy Walk and the Marang Trail. :) I don't knw why,but I am in the momentum of exercising now. :) Usually,I'll be groaning if they say they want us to run.Now I'll just jump right up and run!Weird.But I think it's good.Haha.Anyway,we walked to Henderson Waves(flash backs are coming...) and had a ball of a time there.LOL.Did something the last time Keith and I went there.We climbed the arch thingy there.Damn fun.I started by asking my brother to try to follow me.So I ran up the arch and clung on to the edge there and looked over. O_O Wah.It was SUPER high and windy la!Hahaha.Then everybody started to run up the arch.LOL.Then got one part quite steep then very hard to climb.My shoe no friction and my socks were slippery and my feet kept slipping out my shoes. O.O Hahaha.But still,it was uber fun.Felt like spiderman.Hahahaha!NExt time wanna go back there and play again. :) Maybe that's going to be my comfort or relaxing spot.Hmmm...Sounds good to me. :) &&&I just found out my long-waited book will be coming out on the 3rd of March!Wootwoot!Can't wait to get my hands on it!And it's hard-cover!YAY!But sad la.The first 4 were like soft-covers.Suddenly become hard-cover..Ohwell.Hahaha!&I heard from Keith jis meimei getting the special edition Twilight book! :( I wanted that lor! :( But because I already had one(a very old and sad looking one I have to say) I didn't get it. :( Eeeee..Damn sad. :( Anyway,tml going to Jess's house.Going to celebrate her sister's birthday.Then the start of a new week of a new month.Crap.Schedual sucks like hell man.Monday dance,Tuesday SP trip,Wednesday make-up lessons for tuition on Tuesday,Thursday dance,Friday doing art.Like holy crap?And it's the same thing for the second week.Only diff is Tuesday is the S.A.M trip.Argh...Can't wait for Thursday to come.Seriously gotta sewat out all my frustrations and anger.Stupid Bloody Mary.Making me loose my temper.And she's real weird too.Feb's one came like on the last 2 days of Jan..?Like Jan's one came on the 31st of December.Ah hell...I think I'm stressed out.Argh...

2009-01-30T21:54:00.004+08:00

(IT TEARS ME UP.I TRIED TO HOLD ON BUT IT HURTS TOO MUCH.)

Hmmm...The whole of this week was rather good. :) Except for monday and tuesday.These 2 are the most crappy days ever.They're like super duper long? :( Seriously dread these 2 days.Hahahaha.But then wednesday to friday(which is today)was gooooooooooooood! :) We have quite a few free periods on these days.Like woohoo!Haha.Seriously LOVE Thursdays and today.Hahahaha.I don't know why but I'm starting to love running! :D Ever since we started doing the beep test,I kinda started to love running.Hahaha!I think I'm slowly starting to train my stamina! :) Yay!&&I've got leg muscles! O_O Hahahaha!For this year,I am going to make sure I run/jog whenever I can.Hahahaha.Going to get the momentum and train my stamina and become healthy! :D I think I'm becoming a health freak.Hahahaha.&&&yesterday the seamstress came to school to measure us for our SYF costume.Damn hillarious la!All the girls had to measure their boobs..?LOL!&I was calculating my BMI with some friends just now.Mine is like 22.7..? :O Ah crap!Hahahaha!Nvm.Tml going to exercise.Hahaha.Going for morning walk with grandparents,then mybe ltr on go gym work out and I'll rum a little. :) Feel like going to Chinese Gardens to try out how far os how long I can last.Hahahha.Wanna see where I stand for the up-coming cross-country.LOL!Okie,I gotta now.Brother's starting to bug me again.Argh.Toodles

xoxo

2009-01-25T17:44:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL! :D

Reunion dinner latre on tonight.Tml going to get ang baos soon! :) Hahaha.Can't wait to dress up.LOL.For the first time in my life,I'm going to put on make up for CNY.Hahaha.Just something I thought I'd try for 2009. :D Wear a little more make up.Hahaha.But I'm stll going with the idea of AU NATURAL. :D Hahahaha.It's who I am.NATURAL! :D Hahahahaha.Okie,going now.

GOING XI GONG XI GONG XI NI.
GONG XI FA CAI.
HONG BAO NA LAI.
MEI YOU HONG BAO
MING TIAN NA LAI.
MING TIAN MEI YOU HONG BAO.
GEI NI BLACK EYE! O_O
Hahahahaa! :D

2009-01-24T21:31:00.002+08:00

Well..today was rather fun. :) Grandmomma woke us up at like 8.05. O_O &I was sleeping damn soundly la. :( Ohwelll...!Didn't want to wake up.Crap.But in the end,I still dragged myself off my comfy space to wash up.At about 8.30,aunt,uncle and cousins came.About 9 we left for mount faber.Hahaha.Took the cable car to sentosa. :) Hahaha.Reached sentosa,forst thing we bought was ice-cream. :D I had my favourite Cornetto ice-cream.Hahaha!Then we went on the Tiger Sky Tower. :) The view was nice.LOL.Si much better than the ferris wheel la!Hahaha.Then we went on the luge! :D It was awsome man!The whole family went la!Even grandmomma and grandpapa. :D We were cheering when they came down la!Hahahaha.Then we went on it again.LOL.After that we went Coffee Bean there sit sit. :) Hahaha.Had couble chocolate.Wah.It was nice,but after awhile it became too sweet.Hahaha.&&&along the way I was smsing kor.LOL.Had fun playing with family AND smsing him.Hahaha. :) Then as we were about to go to Palawan Beach,I spotted the sagway!I was like HOLY CRAP!I WANNA GOOOOO!Hahaha.So daddy,uncle,brother and I went.It was fun mann! :D But sad la.Only 10 mins.Hahahaha.Then we went Palawan Beach.LOL.Had lunch there.Took some pictures.Smsed somemore. :) After that uncle brought brother and I to the sagway again for the adventure ride.That was was coolios!Hahahaha.Everywhere we went,we turned heads la!People were like O_O Hahahaha!Damn funny.And the guy,Andrew was kinda cute. :) He looked like he was in his med-twenties.But he had a real nice smile. :D Hahahaha.Not going to say what we did.Ya'll go find out yourself. :D IT'S DAMN FUN I TELL YOU! :) Hahaha.Then after the ride,our legs were damn numb.Hahaha!Then left for dinner.LOL.Had dinner at Ghimoh there.LOL.Ate alot.Smsed kor somemore.Played.Smsed somemore.Hahahaha.Came home.Shower sms somemore.LOL.But now stop le.Kor went to his cousin's house.Hahaha.Say don't want to spoil family time.Hahahaha. :) And now I'm pissed...Seriously hate my brother man...He's such a #%&*@!?\!%@#$*! ARGH!Hate him mannnnnn!Argh! :( Forget.Not going to bother about him.I'm not going to let people like him ruin my day.At least what's left of it. :) So I'm going to SMILE SMILE SMILE and be HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! :D Hahahaha.Okai,that's all now!Toodles

xoxo

2009-01-23T16:10:00.002+08:00

Hmmm...Today was fun,I guess.LOL.Reached school at about 6.15.Saw Cikgu's message,say we need to be in the hall by 7.15.But the thing was ppl were like strolling in to Cikgu's room at like 6.50+ to 7..?Like what the crap?We were suppose to get ready and finish our little rehearsal by 7+ lor.Ohwell...We were a little late la.Cause ppl kept talking.LOL.Madam Lim was damn worked up la.Tsktsk.My blood was starting to boil too.But I managed to control myself. :) Hahaha.So we went to the hall at about 7.20+?&the national anthem was like playing?LOL!Then we had cachamputeh.Hahaha.Don't know how to spell.LOL.Had my favourit peanuts. :D YUM!But sad I cannot eat too much.Otherwise,I'll kill my throat. :( Ohwelll..!It's CNY!I'm going to indulge on kolopok(both fish and prawn flavours),chocolates,sweets,peanuts and A HELL LOT OF COKE! :D Wonder if I'll get to see Jess.Miss her like hell la!Haven't seen her since my birthday. :( Wanna try playing TaiTi.Hahaha.All thanks to shifu Keith's teaching.LOL! Ahhh,anyhoo.We got ang baos from the school too.LOL.A orange file.. O_O We got orange,sec3's got green.I WANT GREEEEEEEEEN! :( Hahahahahaha.Anyway,after that we got ready to perform.LOL.Heard along the way the hall got black out.LOL!But time passed quite fast too la.Chatted a little with Russell&Faihaan.Along with some ppl la.Damn cute la.All showing off their skills.Hahaha.They were trying to open the fan with a flick of the wrist.Hahahaha.Damn cute watching them show off.Especially Russell.LOL!Then after awhile it was our turn to perform.Hahaha.But before that saw 5A's performance.ShengWei was damn gay la.Hahaha.&poor Desmond.Kenna pushed away by the girls.Hahahaha!Then it was our turn.It was a little screwed up la.Keith&I were the parents and the Dia changed our entrance que.LOL.We came out when she said THE PARENTS instead od USUALLY blah blah blah.Hahahah.But we all had fun la.At least. :D HahahaahAfter the whole thing,some of us changed our clothes and then took a group photo.Hahaha.Then GO HOME!Hahaha.Then tonight maybe going out for dinner.LOL.Wonder what we're having for dinner.Hahaha.Ohh!I KNOW!I SHALL REQUEST FOR ANGMOR FOOD!Hahaha.Ask aunty,uncle and cousins along to have PIZZA HUT!Hahahaha.But maybe not.Grandparents are here.Hahaha.Ohwellll..! :D

2009-01-21T21:22:00.002+08:00

Life is a road I wanna keep going.Love is a river I wanna keep flowing.

Life is a road,now and forever a wonderful journey.

Hahaha.Today was kinda good.It's getting better everyday.Bit by bit. :D Feeling a little happier than before.Hahaha.No matter what life or God throws at me,I am so going to face it with my head held high! :D Hahaha.&I found out yesterday that Mr Tan found my blog. O_O Hahaha.So shocking.LOL.Heng I didn't say anything bad.Hahaha.Or I am so dead!LOL.But why would i?Fairfield is such a wonderful place. :) But the people from 5B is giving me bad memories..Majority of them la.Damn sad.Last year already.And everything is so horrible.Tsk.Ohwelll,like I said.I am going to hold me head up high!Hahahaha.Okie,end here now.LOL.This Fridat is ethnic celebration!HOORAY! :D Kinda excited. :) Hahaha.

Reminder:

-JY for PE tml!Have fun doing the beep test!JYJY!You can do it! :D

2009-01-19T21:05:00.002+08:00

Changed blog songggg! :D Childhood favourit song.And I still do.A million times more. :) &today was okay.Haha,Took the MRT to commonwealth. :( Was super duper blur,got off one stop early.Argh.So I took 198 to school.LOL.&&today I was in a kind of good mood. :) Wonder if I am finally getting over the whole mood swing phase.Hahahaha.Ohwell..! :D

2009-01-18T17:12:00.002+08:00

That's it.It's over.I'm done here.I'm not going to bother anymore.
Sick and tired of being somebody I'm not.
Tired of having to hold a mask over my face everyday to hide my feelings.

Ah crap.Sickkk..!Got sore throat.And a bit of a headache.Think I'm going to get a flu soon. :( Ahhhh..*cough* *cough* *cough*Just went through a fit of coughs... X( *sigh* And I have been eating a lot lately. :( So going to get fat!Need to start picking up a sport.P.P in school now doesn't seem as fun was it was last year.This year's PE is fun la,but last year was more fun. :( More things to do.But I mostly stuck with badminton.And once in awhile,I played a little bit of tennis with keith. :) This year,so far we've only done a beep test..?Usually we got to play games on the first teo lessons of PE..?Crap.

2009-01-17T20:46:00.002+08:00

Hmm...today we spent the whole day at the zoo.We as in my mummy,siblings,grandparents,aunt&uncle and my cousins.And I got my very own friends of the zoo card.How nice.I think it was like 40 bucks?Like holy shyt?Anyway,walked around the zoo and really enjoyed myself alot.Saw some kangarros at the zoo.Got to feed them.It was a totally new experience for me.I mean,I've been to Australia and have seen the kangaroos there up close and 'personal'.But I never touched them or fed them.Which was what I got to do today.It was real cool.LOL.They're tongues were super ticklish.Kept squeaking.Hahaha.And I kinda scared some of the kids there.Ooops.Ain't my fault. :] Then yeah.Spent some time at the kiddy place.Not bad.Quite nice.Then as we were leaving,saw a lion and a lioness fight. O_O Like talk about a cat fight.Tsk.So yeah.Now I am back home.After my dinner at balastier la.And yesterday was real moody,so didn't really talk much about the events of school.Crap.Did some catching up in school with Aisyah during art.LOL.Not going to elaborate.&apparently the two of us are suspecting a little something something.Crap.bleah.crap.

2009-01-16T21:16:00.003+08:00

Remember those walls I built
Well baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now
It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
Woah...
Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light
I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again
Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
Halooooo ouuuu
Halooooo ouuuuuu
Halooooo ouuuuu
Ouuuuu ouuuuu ouuuuu
Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace
You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo
I can feel your halo (halo) halo
I can see your halo (halo) halo

Well,the past few days have been a drag.Wake up every morning feeling like something is wrong or feeling that something bad is going to happen.*sigh*&I guess things are really changing and I really hate it.Really wish I can get away from all of this crap.Can't take it anymore.Wanna go to the caribean. :( Really need to relax and find myself.I keep finding and losing myself.As in the old me.The girl I used to be.The very happy and hyper girl.Now I think I'm starting to become a old grouch.Argh.And sometimes I can be real bitchy. :( And I really hate it.*sigh*And to top it all off,I have a terrible gastric pain.And I'm having a bad hair day. :( Crap.Seriously got to get away from here as soon as possible.Or one day I'm just going to blow. :( Feeling super nostalgic.Feeling super sad.Super heart brokened.Super torn.I have turned into a total stranger.I may look like the girl I use to be,but deep down inside,the girl that everybody knew has flown away.And now I am deperately trying to find her,to bring her back home. :( It's so going to take a miracle to bring the old vale back. :(

Don't want in front of me,I may not follow.

Don't walk behind me,I may not lead.

Just walk beside me and be my friend.

Please?

2009-01-15T16:53:00.002+08:00

`Bloated fish seen as a whole

Spikes,fins and guilt as it come

Sweet lips,gentle smile in warm heart

Forget all what was done

I see you and nod accordingly

Inside,my resolve is long surfaced

Pain is bliss,tears are joy

If the mask you wear still,though defaced!

`Blasted morning that arrives one day

For the winter although away

Remains still inside myself

Like those books,longing in my shelves

When I try to read them they become dust

Even if I open them at dusk

Nothing I can do to make them whole again

Life pays life with a heavy toll

So lay down your bookcase and step outside

Open the last door that is always in hide

The doorknob will crack at last

And finally the aim of your life you will grasp.

`The answer to the question "why"

Is laid in mist and scrutinity eye

The right and the wrong on each side

The perils and tear to hide.

`Something is afloat

Not by car nor boat

But in the everlasting skies of day

Gentle kisses and nightlike day

Not a plane in sight

For it is dark at night

As my eyes can plainly see

Our fate was not meant to be.

`Scattered faces with no smiles

All together in a pile

All laughing with no sound

The pale darkness is bound

Run away as fast as you can

The mask you wear chains you still

All is lost without hope

Just a neck,a not and a rope

Failed to see the living lies

Vicious faces with burning eyes

Chantings that warm my weeping soul

But are filled with a sinister goal

I am weak

I am decaying

All my strength is fading...

`Hide your tears behind a mask

Hide your face so no one asks

It may be hard to hold present tears

Your heart is bound to love and fears

All is lost in a silent gaze

The path you lead is dimmed in a haze

Make haste as you reach for the door

Or you will be lost,not returning

Nevermore!

`The little mask that you carry
Who was it? Was a he or a she?
Why on earth do you parry
My question was meant to be!
Your secrecy, true lies
A lie with something hidden inside
My confidence in you fades and dies
And I leave you alone with your pride.
Wear the mask of your little one
That you carry on your bosom
You will shade yourself in some
Twisted, frail endless bottom.
You rule over yourself masked foe
I try only to make you see
The truth beyond lie and woe
You don't believe!!

Well then, I'll let you be!

`A song with no face

Melodies with darkned pace

Broken hands that may be scarred

But still live, for life is hard

Shattered dreams that will no longer come

Fluke of life to one, peril and sadness to some

But always we must endure so all become revealed

If so, one day, our fates will be fullfilled.

2009-01-13T19:23:00.002+08:00

It's been about a year now
ain't seen or heard from you
I've been missing you crazy
how do you, how do you sleep
I found the letter you wrote me
it still smells just like you
damn those sweet memories
How do you, how do you sleep, how do you sleep.

I tried my best at moving on have yet to find a girl like you
I see things that I didn't before and I'm wishing I had more time with you,
How do you stay awake knowing all I do is think of you
All the things we thought about that never will happen again if I could just see you

If I had my way I'll come and get you girl
In your favorite car with the missing top
man around my way where we used to park
and did all those things to steal your heart

(Chorus 2x)
It's been about a year now
ain't seen or heard from you
I've been missing you crazy
how do you, how do you sleep
I found the letter you wrote me
it still smells just like you
damn those sweet memories
How do you, how do you sleep, how do you sleep.

Baby all that I hear from my friends again and again and again (they come and ask about you) (they say) we saw your girl at the game and damn we gotta say a big mistake by you.
Not only does your body bang but I miss the conversation too
Tell me that you couldn't sleep can't think can't eat till I come see you

If I had my way I'll come and get you girl
In your favorite car with the missing top
man around my way where we used to park
and did all those things to steal your heart

It's been about a year now
ain't seen or heard from you
I've been missing you crazy
how do you, how do you sleep
I found the letter you wrote me
it still smells just like you
damn those sweet memories
How do you, how do you sleep, how do you sleep

It's been about a year now
ain't seen or heard from you
I've been missing you crazy
how do you, how do you sleep
I found the letter you wrote me
it still smells just like you
damn those sweet memories
How do you, how do you sleep, how do you sleep

My new favourite song.Hahaha.How Do You Sleep by Jesse McCartney! :D My sweetie pie!Hahaha.My sweetheart is Taylor Lautner! :D Hahahaha.Anyway,been feeling rather moody lately. :( Hate it.&I keep having mixed emotions.&they are real nonsensical.They all range from anger to sadness to highness to grumpyness to tiredness to jealousy.Yeap.Jealousy was the latest emotion so far.Crap.Whatever.Hope it goes away soon. :( Shall end here now.Gotta do some homework.Haha.Buh bye

2009-01-10T20:33:00.002+08:00

First of all,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ESTHER!
Although I don't know you.Still wanna wish you a happy 12th birthday!You are now a tween!Congrates! :)

Hahaha!Well,today was kinda fun.Went to see the dentist today.Changed the rubber thingy to pink.Hahaha.Promised Audrey Law I would change it to pink the next time I go see the dentist.LOL.Then came home&did some school homework.Plus some revision.See..!I am so hard-working! :D Hahahaha.Not going to take any chances.Last year "N" level came uber fast.Now I'm gonna study every single day.Hahaha!Anyway,at about 2+ Audrey Lee came.Haha.Went to the pool side there to study.Not very productive I have to say.LOL!But we still managed to complete majority of the work.Hahaha.But we played by the pool too.LOL!When we were done with everything,went to the playground to play.Hahahaha!We were like some deprived people la!So old already still play at the playground.Hahahaha!&&&we saw a baby.I think it's Louise or something.She's damn suteee!Her eyes were like O.O Hahahahahaha!Damn big!LOL.Then yeah,5.30 needed to go home.Meeting some friends who are going to migrate to Australia.Tsk.Hahaha.Ohwelll..!LOL.Tml grandparents coming to Singaporeee!YAYY!Miss them like hell la!Didn't get to see them over Christmas.Now we get to see them during CNY.YIPEEE!Hahaha.Damn happy.LOL!Okie.End here now.Wanna upload songs into my phoneee~! :D Buh byeeee~!

xoxo,

a very happy little girl. :D

2009-01-09T21:00:00.002+08:00

Okay,so the first week of school had been a whilrpool of dance,tuition and studying.And every night I go to bed feeling super tired,super sore and super stressed!&it's only the first week of school?Argh..Every morning I wake up feeling groggy.I go to school in a tiny winy daze.But along the way I wake up a little.&then I get all tired and groggy again.Tsk.&Thursday I was feeling kinda perky.But after PE I was dead as a zombie.LOL.We did this beep test which I thought was kinda fun.&it was.At least for the first few laps. :) 8 to be exact.LOL.After that everything went all topsy-turvy.At the second last lap,the room started to spin a little.But I didn't really bother,I just slowed down a little.Then I started running again when the room 'stabilized' again.&the next thing I knew,the whole room went blank. O_O But I was still standing.So I jogged a little and stopped to wait for my vision to come back again.When it did,I started to sway and the room started to spin again.Like O_O Tsk.After that I seriously couldn't run anymore.&Mr Ng kept asking me to go.Argh..&after PE I felt so damn weak.Couldn't even hold my things properly.&in Fairsian Connect,I kept swaying to&fro.Tsk..Then had to go for dance. :( Seriously didn't have any energy in me la.&I had to learn all the dance steps on that day..?&I have a feeling Amice Lim wants to put me in.She was like "Valerie,I want you to learn Shianne's part very very well.Okay?" &I stupidly said "Okay".Hahaha.Actualy,it's not too bad la.The piece is actually really nice.But need alot of energy.But my energy all used up in PE.How to dance..?Argh..!&now while typing,I can feel my eyes slowly starting to close.CRAP.&I'm loosing my appetite now a days.Wanted to skip dinner but mummy kept making me eat.Argh...I think I'm gonna end here.Seriously super tired. :( Buh bye...

2009-01-05T20:05:00.003+08:00

Well...Today's the 1st day of school,1st day of week 1 term 1. :D &well,I'm starting to feel kinda stressed out now. :D &I'm still smiling.Haha.Anyhoo..!Went to school and met Keith at 5A's locker.Haha.&when Kenneth came,they say want to pon attire check. T.T &they went off before assembly started.Tsk tsk.All ps me lorr!Hahaha.So I spent the whole day with Tiara.LOL. So sad.2 of ud always kenna ps-ed.Hahahahaha!&today's lessons were good,I have to say. :D
English was okay..Ms Mano was a little stern with us but she's still nice.Mother Tongue was the same.Did zuo ye.Maths..We'll be split into two groups.Eeeesh.Gonna be seperated from Keith.LOL.My personal math tutorr~!LOL!Jking jking.It's temporary only.Hope we'll be in the same class.Keeping my fingers crossed!Hahahaha!Ahhh.Physics.LOL.Tiara&I were like the 1st 2 people there&Mr Tan Chee Wan was like Wah.Why so early? Hahaha.&the calss took 25min+ to get to class&Mr Tan was as mad as a bull la!LOL.He shouted at the class&kept slamming his ruler.&in the lab I was like Wah.Tiara,he keep whacking like that.His ruler is so gonna break man! &then next time he slammed the ruler,it really broke..!Hahahahaha!Then Combine Humans!Mr Ow look like he's balding.LOL.&while waiting for the rest to come,we were talking about Christophor Kho.LOL.We called him the French Fry.Hahaha!&like holy crap..?!He actually built a bomb..?! O_O He's genious mannn! :O Now not only is he charged for building a bomb,he's also charge for having explosives in his house! :O So now..He's in MIH.LOL.Then LS was ok la.LOL.After that didn't go for dance.Haha. Helped Audrey with her english book review.LOL!Stayed till 6+.Hahaha.Studied a bit of maths and ltr going to study SS.Hahaha.But all the studying's making my head hurt. :( Hope I survive&don't get so toally stressed out.Crap. :(

2009-01-03T17:02:00.004+08:00

Some how I know I will find a way to a brighter day in the sun
Somewhere I know that he waits for me
Someday soon he'll see I'm the one
I won't give up on this feeling and nothing will keep me away
'Cause I still believe in destiny
That you and I were meant to be
I still wish on the stars as they fall from above
'Cause I still believe,believe in love

Well...I have started working on the barrier that's gonna protect my heart and soul.I did hesitate for a moment,though. 'Cause...Well,although I am sort of giving up on HIM and love...I can't help but to continue believeing in love.&I made a secret promise that I'll love him forever more. *sigh* I really don't know what to do now...*sigh* Guess I better hurry build that barrier so I can focus on my work more. :[ *sigh*

[EDIT]
Okay.Today was the first time I cried in 2009.Great.&I told myself I wasn't going to cry at all in 2009.Unless it is neccessary.&this wasn't.Argh.Why the hell am I so damn weak?CRAP.Can't even keep a simple new year resolution. Argh.Anyway,woke up this morning and started to do my art.But didn't do much.Wasn't really concentrating.Crap.So I gave up on art and did maths. :) I don't know why.But suddenly I had the feeling I wanted to do maths and that I actually love the subject. O_O Haha.So I studies VECCTORS IN TWO DIMENSIONS.Not a very hard topic I have to say..Not too bad.It's understandable..At the very least.LOL.But i gotta ask Keith for help on one section.Hahaha.Ohwell.&we celebrated my brother's b'day today.LOL.Had swenson's for dinner&had ice-cream from Udders.Not bad neh!Hahahaha.Should try.Just opened.LOL.Okie,end here now.Buh bye.
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2009-01-02T17:17:00.004+08:00

I'm too tired to try to break free now.I just wanna close my eyes and never open them again.

Well,today was the first day of school.What a day.Totally filled with talks and talks and talks and...Did I say talks..?Hahaha.Yeah,the whole day was filled with talks.Argh.Eyes kept closing but Keith was there to nudge me awake. *sigh* &this year Russell&I were given breaks from our chairman duties.I'm glad I got a break,but I also wanna do something for the class... :( Don't want to admit it.But I feel kinda empty not being a chairman.CRAP.Thanks to the whole of last year,the rold has sort of rubbed in on me.Crap crap crap crap crap.&today i turned a little green too.Okay,I turned into a ooogly shade of green.Argh.Once again,I say crap.Whatever.&today I think I felt a little tinge of my old self in school.I dunno why or how.But I sensed the old me in while in school.So maybe I am starting to go back to the way I was before.Hopefully.

Anyway,today Cikgu Samshia was uber fierce!So scary.&she's also uber straight-forward.Guess straight-forward is good.But not so much.Haha.Hope we get used to Cikgu's straight-forwardnesss!Hahaha. *sigh* &&&today I took 166 home with keith.Stopped at outram MRT.The MRT I don't really like.Keep getting lost there.Crap.But I still survived.

Anyway,while walking home from the MRT,I was looking for a litter of cats I saw a few days ago.&I found them.The momma cat saw me coming&sort of crept rowarsme but kept a safe distance from me.&then looking behiind her,I saw the cutest kitten I ever saww!&when the momma cat saw me looking at the kitten,she sort of charged at me but then backed away again into some plants nearby.Of course i just stood there la,she gave me a fright.Somehow i think she wanted me to follow her.'Cause when I didn't follow her into the plants,she came out again and meowed mee.I meowed her back and took a step towards her.She didn't move,so I took a few more steps closer to her.Once again,she took off into the plants.That's when I had a feeling she wanted me to follow her.So I went down into the drain but I couldn't find her.I bet all those people walking and driving by thought I was crazy. *sigh* Feel real sad I couldn't figure out what the momma cat wanted me to do.She had a real sad look in her eyes when she meowed me.Now I can't stop thinking of the momma cat.Her beautiful jade green eyes that seem to plead with me to help her.Right now,I wish I could understand what every animal is thinking or talking.Hmmm...Okay,not every animal.Some birds can be really annoying.So I just wanna be able to communicate with cats,dogs,hamsters,dolphines,horses,bears,tigers,lions..Aiya,all my favourite animals luh.I'm not really into birds because they seem to be screeching or whatever for no good reason.Headache.Even now while blogging,some stupid bird is croaking away.CRAP.Whatever.Maybe tml I will go back there again and see if I can help the momma cat again. :) Something to get my mind off of things.Ha,I know.It's just the start of 2009.But some things from 2008 came along with me and it won't go away.So maybe I'll just channel all my energy into helping to momma cat. *sigh* Okie,shall end here now.I think I need me some chocolates. :( Buh byeee

2009-01-01T20:03:00.005+08:00

My Pressies!
Pink rabbit,fluffy,lavandar handcream&scent bag : Jess!
Mickey Mouse hands : Keith&Kenneth!
Yellow Teddy : John!

Babe alertt~! :D

Silosooo~!

The picture days it all~!

Yeah.I promise to love you forever more.Even more than last year.Not that you care.

BFFs! <3>

Uh-huh!Pictures from my birthdayyy~!Hahahaha.It was awesome!Loved it! :D &today's the first day of 2009!Time to start a new.No more heart aches,no more tears.Just me&my big old smile&laughter.They shall be my new bestfriends!No longer tears. :D Hahaha!Hope tml will be a great first day of school!Keeping my fingers crossed. :D Shall end here now!Buh byeee~! <3

2008-12-31T12:37:00.004+08:00

1)30.12.2008 was loved.

2)I am building a barrier to protect my heart and soul.

3)I love playing guitar rock tour on my phone.

4)I am going to be a sec 5 next year.

5)It's O lvl time and I am so dead.

6)I LOVE VAMPIRES.

7)I aspire to be a FAMOUS pet groomer,pet rescuer or a vet.

8)I am going to start playing audition again.To release any stress from next year.

9)I simply love my diva-licious gf,Jessica.

10)I wanna learn how to play the guitar,piano,drums and to skateboard.

11)I wanna be a vampire.

12)I want a dog.I need family bf.

13)I love TAYLOR LAUTNER.He's hotter than Robert Pattinson.YOU HEAR THAT JESS?! :D

14)I am missing my home.

15)I officially have no birthdays.

16)I wanna meet the PCD,David Archuletta,Taylor Swift,a real Edward Cullen.

2008-12-31T10:04:00.002+08:00

I just wanna be alone tonight
I just wanna take a little breather
Cause lately all we do is fight
And every time it cuts me deeper
Cause somethings changed
Youve been acting so strange
And its taking its toll on me
Its safe to say that Im ready to let you leave
Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, Im seein myself so differently
I didnt wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought id say
Im fine
Without you
Called you up cause its been long enough
And you said that you were so much better
We have done a lot of growing up
We were never meant to be together
Cause something changed, you were acting so strange
And its taken its toll on me
Its safe to say that Im ready to let you leave
Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, Im seein myself so differently
I didnt wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought id say
Im fine
Without you
Cause something changed, you were acting so strange
And its taken its toll on me
Its safe to say that Im ready to let you leave
Without you, I live it up a little more everyday
Without you, Im seein myself so differently
I didnt wanna believe it then
But it all worked out in the end
When I watched you walk away
Well I never thought id say
Im fine,
Without you
Without you
Without you
Without you
I just wanna be alone tonight,
I just wanna take a little breather

Well,yesterday was a fun-tastic birthday ever.Met Jess at Newton MRT at about 11+.We exchanged gifts there.Hahaha.I got UBER cute pink rabbit,a little fluffy keychain,a lavandar hand cream and a lavandar scented bag.WOOOOHOOO!I sure do love me some lavandarr! :D Anyway,after that we headed to vivo to get the tickets for the movie and waited for Keith,Kenneth&John to come.At first everybody was lost and we couldn't find each other.Then saw Kenneth&John at another entrace of food republic.Hahaha.Then dunno why kennneth dissapear and only John came out.Haha.I found out why a few minutes ltr.Hahaha.After John gave me my birthday pressie.It was a cute little yellow teddy bear.Hahaha.So cute.Goes real well with the pink rabbit Jess got me.Hahaha!Then John started acting all funny&I had a feeling something was up.Hahaha.So I stayed real close to Jess and kept looking around me.LOL!
Then I finally saw Kenneth and Keith and they were holding something in their hands.LOL!It was 2 Mickey Mouse hand gloves&they were HUGEEEEE!Hahahaha!Damn cute la!Hahaha.Then we went Carl's Junior for lunch.Hahaha.Cause everybody was 'freaking' hungry.Hahaha.Shared a large fires with Jess&we cam-whored there.SHe bought those 'shades' that Kanye West had and they were niceeeee!Hahaha.After that we headed of to Sentosa.LOL.Everybody kept saying there were only 5of us.but I said 6.Hahaha.Then Keith bought 6 tickets to enter Sentosa when he knew there were only 5!Oooops!Hahahaha. So we sold the extra ticket to this guy who was queuing up to buy.Hahahaha.&&&whenever we tap in or out,Kenneth always had problems.LOL.Then everytime he cannot pss,he'll go under that bar thingy.LOL.Damn funny la.Then after that all the guys went to the toilet. O.o Thought only girls did that. :P Hahaa.
Again I had a feeling they were planning something 'evil' and remembererd our 'treasure hunt' and told jess if we should run off somewhere and make them find us.LOL.She was up for it la.But before we could decide where to run to.They all caught up with us.LOL.Ohwellll!Then just infront of the luge there,they all started throwing water bombs at us..Hahaha.Then while they were picking up the bags,Jess&I ran off and went to the New Zealand ice Cream store.Haha!Jess bought her ice cream and I had my Snapple.YUM! :D But when I was going to take my Snapple,Jess saw Keith,Kenneth&John just outside the shop we were in.LOL!&they didn't even see us!HAHAHAHA.They walked to the bike rental there but came out ltr and walked off.LOL.Then Keith called me.Hahaha.Told them to come back.LOL!Damn funnyyy.
Then walked further up front the Siloso beach there to find somewhere to play.Hahaha.But the Siloso like a big area taken to prepare for the countdown lorrr.LOL.But we managed to find a spot and played a little.Hahaha.Then went to Palawan beach and crossed that bridge there to the other island.Hahaha.Saw this tree that was sticking out towards the sea.Cam-whored there and then reallized it was already 4+.We were almost late for the movie laa.LOL!
&THE MOVIEEEEE!!It was niceee!Hahahaha!&&&&&&&&&&&TAYLOR LAUTNERRR~!HE'S SO DAMN FREAKIN HAWTTTTTTTT~!AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~!Hahahaha.But he looks a little ridiculous with that long hair.Argh.Hahaha!BUT HE"S STILL SO DAMN HAWTTTTT!AHHHH!I LOVE TAYLOR LAUTNERRRRR! Hahaha.Jess&I were like argueing about who's hotter.She said Robert Pattinson was hot.I was like eeeew!NOO!TAYLOR LAUTNER IS HOTTERRRRRRRR!Hahahaha.HE'S SERIOUSLY DAMN OMFG HAWTTTTTTT!Hahahaha.But I seriously expect the actor ating as Edward Cullen to be hotter laaa.Eeeee.Spoilerrr.He only looked hot in some angles laaaaaaa!He's suppose to look like an angel with beautiful bronze natrually spiked or messily arranged hair laaa!He's suppose to look cute and have a lop-sided smileee!But Robert Pattinson had noneeeee!Tsk.&althought they skipped quite afew or cut out some parts of the book,when they filmed Edward climbing up the tree,it was like :0 Hahahaha.The way they filmed it was damn nice laaaa!Hahahaha.But there is only 1 guy in the movie that looked like how he was suppose to look.It was Carlise.He looks OMFG handsomeeee!I simple adore his eyes mannn!They're like holy crappp!Damn niceeee!Argh!Everytimne the camera turns to him,I will be like HOLY CRAPPP!Hahaha.&there's going to be a New Moon movie coming out next yearrr!YAY!Going to watch it tooo!Hahaha.
But at the end of the day,I was a very happy girl. :D Hahaha.I got to spend the whole day out with my friends and got some real nice pressies!Hahahaha.&&&after spending the whole day out,I now have 2 diff tan lines!Hahaha.One was from swimming&the other from Sentosa.LOL!Okie,shall end here now.LOL.After that going to do some thing John tagged me to do.LOL.Buh byeee! :D

xoxo,
a happy little girl. :)

2008-12-29T14:56:00.002+08:00

Well I don't know how to say this right,
And the words got me choking
I keep hitting this wall,
It's never gonna fall
And we're still broken
This mountain we've been trying to climb,
It's neverending
Just can't do nothing, gotta do something
'Cause if we don't open up our eyes,
We're just pretending
Well there's a time for giving up,
Didn't wanna have to say it
All we're doing is building walls
And now there's too many barriers
Here we are lying here
It's our last final goodnight
Just because it feels so good,
No use pretending we're alright
Too many locks (locks), too many crimes (crimes)
Too many tears (tears), too many lies (lies)
Too many barriers (barriers)
Oh, just too many barriers
Now we've been draggin' this whole thing out,
But I can't wait any longer
Our love's burnin' down,
Creepin' in the doubt
We're not gettin' any stronger
I hear you say that we're doin' okay
But, baby, I don't think so
Just can't do nothin', gotta do somethin'
'Cause if I don't get into my car,
I won't go very far
Well, there's a time for givin' up
Didn't wanna have to say it
All we're doin' is building walls
Now there's too many barriers
Here we are, lyin' here
It's our last final goodnight
Just because it feels so good,
No use pretending we're alright
Too many locks (locks), too many crimes (crimes),
Too many tears (tears), too many lies (lies)
Too many barriers (barriers)
Too many barriers
Just too many barriers
That we keep running into
Been tryin', but we just can't break through
I know I'm gonna keep wishin' I was with you,
But we just gotta stop
Here we are, lyin' here
It's our last final goodnight
Just because it feels so good,
No use pretending we're alright
Too many locks (locks), too many crimes (crimes),
Too many tears (tears), too many lies (lies)
Too many lies
In your hurry to get somewhere,
And the road's tryin' to block ya,
block ya (too many barriers)
And you feel like you're nowhere,
'Cause the world's tryin' to stop ya,
stop ya (too many barriers)
In your hurry to get somewhere,
And the road's tryin' to block ya,
block ya (too many barriers)
And you feel like you're nowhere,
'Cause the world's tryin' to stop ya,
stop ya (too many barriers)

Well,just recently I have found out something that I don't think I was suppose to know about.This is the 2nd time I found out something that I wasn't suppose to know until like probable later.ARGH.&this one was kept from me for a reason.My O lvl and maybe a A lvl..?They kept it from me just so I won't be distracted by it or whatever.But too bad.Once again,I found out about it already.&I don't know how to handle it.It has happened once last year and some people had to come in to help make it better.It worked but now it's happening again.I really don't want history to repeat itself.It was real dark when it happened.Days in school were a blur and sunny-less.Everyday I plaster on a smile on my face to prevent any questions from others around me and because I don't want to ruin any happy moments to come.Sigh.WOnder if I could ask my dear peace-makers to come and help make peace again.&I realized I was like my daddy.We're both uber weak people.We cry very easily.Which is what I am doing now while posting this...It's just damn sad that this is happening again.I'm not going to say much about this anymore.Maybe I'll just confide in my buddies when I meet up with them.Which is tomorrow...Then again maybe not.I won't tell them about this tml.It's my birthday.My very last one in fact.Not going to celebrate it anymore.Tomorrow is going to be my last birthday ever.Going to enjoy every last minute of it.Going to play at WWW then catch a movie and it's syonara to everybody&my birthday.Haha.Sigh.Shall end here now.Buh bye.

xoxo,

the girl who has no birthdays.

2008-12-28T14:40:00.002+08:00

SADNESS IS BEAUTIFUL.LONELINESS IS TRAGICAL.

Mmm, yeah, yeah
Baby, please try to forgive me
Stay here
Don't put out the glow
Hold me now
Don't bother
If every minute it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man that I've become
Oh yeah
Lookin' back on the things I've done
I was tryin' to be someone
I played my part
And kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart
Sadness is beautiful
Loneliness that's tragical
So help me
I can't win this war oh, no
Touch me now
Don't bother
If every second it makes me weaker
You can save me
From the man I've become (ohhh)
Lookin' back on the things I've done (girl and my girl)
I was tryin' to be someone (tryin' to be somone)
I played my part (ohhh)
And kept you in the dark (baby girl)
Now let me show you the shape of my heart
I'm here
With my confession
Got nothing to hide no more
I don't know where to start
But to show you
The shape of my heart
I'm lookin' back
On things I've done
I never wanna play the same old part (ohhh)
Or keep you in the dark (keep you in the dark)
Now let me show you the shape of my heart
Lookin' back on the things I've done (ohhh)
I was tryin' to be someone (tryin' to be someone)
I played my part (ohhh)
And kept you in the dark (ohhh)
Now let me show you (now let me show you the)
The shape of my heart (show you the shape of my heart)
Lookin' back on the things I've done (ohhh)
I was tryin' to be someone
I played my part (ohhh)
And kept you in the dark (ohhh)
Now let me show you the shape of
Show you the shape of my heart

Well,it's official.I officially declare that I have no more birthdays.The past 16 years have been real sucky.Except for the few occasions where my parents organized a really great party.&all my friends were there with me.Well,time has changed&my parents won't plan a party for me now.Neither will I.&all my friends are too busy or can't be bothered to come.So I'm not bothering anymore.I'm never going to celebrate my birthday again.Not now,not ever.I think celebrating my birthday with my familt is more rewarding.Hmph.Whatver.So for my lasy birthday celebration,I'm just going to watch a movie with the friends who actually bother to remember my birthday date.Gawd.Ok,I'm out.No more.Buh bye.

2008-12-27T18:22:00.004+08:00

I'm too afraid to love you because it just kills me.

Uh-huh.Today was fun fun fun.Hahaha.Went WWW with aunty,uncle&cousins.Uber fun.Haha.Went to the Shiok River&the Tsunami Pool.LOL!Damn fun.We spent alot of time at the Shiok River lor.Hahaha.&I am quite tanned now.LOL!Not so obvious la.But I know I am.Hahahahaha.&&&I got a new hairstyle.LOL.I mean it's still the same la.But I am tieing it differently now.Hahahaha.Gonna use it for school&everyday.Hahahaha.Yay mee!Lol.&my birthday's coming sooooon!3 more days to be exact.Hahaha.Kinda excited. :D

40 Edward Cullen Characteristics Every Guy Should Have.
1. Be inhumanly attractive
2. Drive 200 km/h
3. Save you from death
4. Have an amazing body
5. Be incredibly wealthy
6. Be too much of a gentleman
7. Have an elegant way of walking
8. Be inhumanly strong
9. Have a crooked smile
10. Have an extended and sophisticaded vocabulary
11. Be really smart
12. Good taste in music
13. Smell extraordinarily nice
14. Suddenly appear out of nowhere and kiss you passionately
15.To tell you that you ARE beautiful, not that you look beautiful
16. To be able to enter to your room without anyone noticing
17. Be willing to sacrifice his life to save yours
18. Have eyes only for you even if he is surrounded by hot girls
19. Be able to read minds except yours.
20. Quote Romeo
21. Stand in front of you in a protective way when you are in danger
22. Give you his jacket when you are cold
23. To stay young, gorgeous, and sexy forever
24. Have morals
25. Love you for what you are inside, not for how you look
26. Be charming
27. Be jealous of your guy friends
28. Sparkle in the sunlight
29. Write you a song
30. Wait for the ideal girl to come along
31. Be a virgin
32. Whisper nice things to your ear
33. Be able to make you beautiful and inmortal
34. Tell you that the outside world holds no interest for him without you
35. Be comprehensive
36. Have a nice family
37. Play the piano
38. Kiss you in the middle of a fight
39.Always paying for everything
40. Hug you from behind
41. Have been pretty much single since 1901
42. Hold your face while he kisses you
43. Do not sleep at night, stay by your side taking care of you
44. Speak no lies
45. Have a good taste in clothes
46. Have beautiful and expresive eyes
47. Own amazing cars
48. Be able to carry you with no effort
49. Tell you that you are the closest to heaven that he will ever get
50. Be willing to spend eternity by your side

Hahaha.Some random thing.LOL.Lots of girls said they wish their guy or the guy they find or will find would be like Edward.Tsk..So much pressure on the guys.Give them such a hard time...Tsktsk.I only want my guy to have at least some of those characteristics.Hahahaha.So no pressure.Hahahaha. :D Okie,end here.Buh bye.

2008-12-25T16:57:00.002+08:00

CRAP.Just thought of my birthday&I think my birthday is going to be real crappy.I don't think I'll be having the BIG wonderful glamorous party I wanted.CRAP.Not sure if I still want to go ahead with the thing.Hm..Seriously can't wait for Jess to come back.Can plan the whole thing with her&just so she can be there,I'm going to celebrate my birthday on the day she can make it. If she can make it on the 30th,then hooray.If she can't,then nvm,we'll choose a day together.Which is like only 3days to choose from..?Since she's coming back tml.Ok,4days.31st December will have to be counted as well.Hmmmmm..!CRAP.Ok,end here now.Buh bye

2008-12-24T12:33:00.004+08:00

Hmm...Wellll...The past few days wasn't my day at all.Cried afew times.Everything was so screwed.Hated myself.&I still do.Ah crap.Anywayyyy..!
Today's christmas eve.Supposedly the first christmas eve I get to celebrate with my friends. But then something came up. :( So now I won't be celebrating my first christmas eve with my friends or watch my movie.Crap.Yeah,sure I can wacth it with my brother.But he's just going to watch it because of the f-ing cars.&it's no fun watching with him.Because I won't be able to rant about how hot Edward Cullen is.He's a fker for this kind of thing.&friends who used to be friends have watched it with their little clique.&those who are friends have watched it without me too.How pathetic can my life get?Crap.&my birthday...Fking crap.Dunno hwo I want to celebrate it.Not even sure if I want to.Although I already did some planning with Kenneth yesterday.This year,instead of ppl bailing out on me.Can I bail out on them just this once?Although it won't affect them since it's not their birthday.Crap.Whatever.I'm out.I hate myself.

[EDIT]
Okay.So maybe it wasn't so bad after all.Making tang yuan was fun.We added some godiva chocolates into some of them&the taste was goooooood!Hahahaha.Dinner was deliecious too.LOL!&just a few minutes ago,we opened 2 of our pressies.LOL!I got a new water bottle(it's green!my fav colour!),a pair of BEAUTIFUL ear rings&a PAVAROTTI CD.Woohoo!My fav singer!LOL. :D Ok,can't wait to open the rest of the pressies.LOL! :D &&&I thin kSelena Gomez&Demi Lovato are so damn pretty.Hahaha.Wish I was like them. :( Ohwelll! :D MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE!

2008-12-23T17:20:00.004+08:00

Jealousy spread like wildfire.
&it takes a million pails to hold on to the tears.
Millions of fishing nets to catch all the broken pieces of my heart.
Millions of plasters to cover up all the cuts&bruises.
Lots of time needed to heal them all.
I don't know what else to say,it's all up to you now.

Yeah.Well,on the 18th we got back our N level results.I passed.I was glad.Celebrated for two nights in a row.Planned to go out after that to watch Twilight but didn't in the end.But I changed my phone on that night.Once again,I was happy.Then my smile was turned up-side down and my heart was broken into millions of pieces.Had to run to get pails to hold my tears,nets to catch pieces of my heart&plasters to cover up the wounds.But it wasn't enough.My heart just wouldn't stop bleeding&I couldn't help it but to break down and cry.Every night,I have difficulty sleeping.&I wake up with a heavy heart the next day.Nothing can quite cheer me up.Eeeesh.Nvm.Will end here.Shall update again ltr.

2008-12-22T17:45:00.006+08:00

The country road I long to take.To get away from this life of mine.

Country road take me away.Away from all the pain.

If I had a dog,it would just be me and my dog.

But I try not to cry as the tears are just a form of liquid pain.

Even though tears are the words my heart cannot say.

Okay.So the past few days have been filled with lots of ups and downs.And now it's official,my life is so filled with downs.All because of a stupid little thing called love.Argh.Don't know why I had to hold on with a love so strong for.It's just so not worth it.Guess I was real stupid as to believe all that was said to me?Maybe they were all lies.Or maybe they were true?I don't know.Right now,I find it very hard to trust anybody.Crap.Guess I better start building my barrier.A barrier to protect myself.Going to be more guarded about others.Not going to let myself be lied to and hurt again.No more.I'm putting an end to this.So there.

2008-12-20T17:50:00.002+08:00

Last Christmas I gave you my heart
But the very next day
You gave it away
This year to save me from tears
I gave it to someone special

Ohyeahhh~ It's almost chritsmasssss!5 more dayssss!Yipee Aye Yay!Hahahaha.After that is my birthday,which is in then days time or 5 days after christmas.Lol!Some people asked if I was going to have a birthday party or not.LOL!Not so sure.Planning on having one but then again...Not so sure.Hahahaha.Hope this year will be a ROCKIN' CHRISTMAS & a FUNKAYE BIRTHDAY for me.Hahahaha.Always wanted to have a funky birthday party,but was saving it for this year.Lol.Sweet 16.Hahahaha.But then dunno how am I going to make it funkaye.LOL.See if majority of the people I want to invite coming or not first..Tsk.Always like that one.Ask them come they say ok,after that last minute say not coming.Tsk..That's why not sure if I want to celebrate this year or not.Hahahaha.Kk,end here.Got some holiday homework left to to.Lol.

THINGS TA DOOO :
` ENGLISH ORCA! (2/3 MORE TO GO) >.< :D
` ART! >.<
` WRAP PRESSIESSSS! :D
` PLAY GUITA ROCK TOUR ON PHONE! :D

2008-12-19T16:46:00.002+08:00

Yeahyeah.Still experiencing the joy I felt yesterday.Hahaha.Uber happy.&I changed my phone too! :D CHanged to a Sony Eric W595.Love it man!Hahaha.The blue's really unique.Wanted white,though..Hahaha.Ohwell!But now what I want the most is MY PSP!Arghhhhh.Mummy say see how much is it in Vancouver first.ARHHHHH~!Can't wait man!Can finally play DJMax on MY OWN PSP!Hahahahahaha.Argh.Ok,nothing to say le.Hahaha.Oh...Except for one thing.

I WANNA WATCH TWILIGHT!

2008-12-18T18:08:00.002+08:00

Yess!I feel oh so happy!Got back our N level results today!I GOT PROMOTED!Yayyy~!So happy!Although I think I could have done better,I'm still glad that I passed.I got 8 points!Like woohoo!WHo cares if it's a 8..?I PASSED!Hahahaha.So damn happy.Called daddy&he was choking back tears of joy?Hahaha!I was on the verge of tears too.But yeah.I'm so happy!What a huge load off of my shoulders!Now it's time for me to start to work hard and get ready for O levels.I'm going to pay attention in class and study study study!Gawd.Won't that make me a nerd?Crap.Hahahaha!Ohwell!I'm just so happy!YEAH!Later tonight going Pizza Hut celebrate!WOOHOOO! :D I'm a happy little girl!Hahahaha

2008-12-17T13:58:00.004+08:00

Ah crap.Tomorrow's the release of N level results and I am so not ready for it!Crap!Surprisingly the hols went by f-ing fast and I lost track of time.After the N levels I rested at home with the thinking that I didn't quite study hard enough for the exams.But during that period of time I had dance training to prepare for next year's SYF.Was glad that the teachers actually still wanted me to join in even though we're still not so sure about the future.But the time I spent with all my juniors dancing and laughing were enjoyable.Especially during the dance camp.During that camp,I really felt like I was really proud to be a dancer.&I would give anything to stay in dance for a year or even more.

But then we had a break and during that time we went to visit grandmama in Sarawak.Then on the week we came back we left for HK.The trip was real great as we had friends with us.&I will keep that in my heart forever.Then my 2nd Aunt visited us and we spent many days shopping and playing together.During those days,I felt like I was the girl I was back then.With lots of harmless teasing and just joking and fooling around.I've also experienced the happiness I felt I had lost this year.But one my 2nd AUnt left to go back to Vancouver,all the happiness I found just went away along with her.So now I am back to the girl I was before she came.

&thinking back into the days before the exams and school end,I felt I have gained and lost a few things.For instance,I actually grew as a leader while being a class deputy chair man in 4G.Everyday I go to school in hope of gaining some knowledge and enjoy myslef at the same time.Which I did.Spent alot of time laughing with Keith&Kenneth.With the occasional or often additional presence of Aisyah.During the 2 years of being classmates with her,I felt that Aisyah&I have grown closer although sometimes we're not exactly on the same page.But still,we can talk about everything and anything.Like arguing who does Edward Cullen belong to.&the most memorial day of the year was the 120th anniversary celebration.Had lots of fun standing on the chairs in the field with Audrey,Aisyah,Tiara&Aprilia.Singing along in all the songs and taking pictures.It was real fun just hanging out together having fun and not having any arguements.&I must not forget all the alone time I had to myself.All in which I spent reading lots of books.Yeah,sure.Call me a bookworm but it's what I like to do when I need to get some things off of my mind.&I remember sometimes my alone night end up in the middle of the night and I start to write poems untill I feel content and go to sleep.

Although the year 2008 had been filled with lots of ups and downs (which I did not mention at all),I did learn a few things from it.For example,although Audrey&I fought alot and well,have gone our own seperate ways,we still manage to put them all aside and we still can have a ball of a time.Especially during tuition.ALl the time spent laughing and not really consentrating.But we do help ech other out with the topics we're not certain of.&in the year 2008 I have also met a few new friends.Or got closer to some of them.I got to know Patricia,Joel&Arron.Yeah.That's my a few.At least I didn't say a bunch.Haha.Well,all in all,I feel that the year 2008 is the most memorial year.Filled with lots of happiness,laughter and the occasional bickerings.

Still,Fairfield has become a home to me.All my friends have been like brothers&sisters to me.All the teachers like our gaurdian or parents.It WILL be sad to have to leave Fairfield.Crap.Guess I can't do much now.Will just have to wait till tomorrow.At 2pm to be exact.Crap crap crap.Guess I'll just continue with my story writing ba.CRAP!

I WANNA WATCH TWILIGHT!

2008-12-16T17:20:00.003+08:00

(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh
eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)

It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else
It's for the best, I know it is
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside

And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)
Not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)

Memories
Supposed to fade
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it be this hard
Should be strong
Moving on
But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside

And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret
Everything I said
No way to take it all back, yeah
Now I'm on my own
How I let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand
Yeah, oooh, oooh, oooh
Oooooooh
Oh
Ooooh, oh

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
And I really don't know what to do

I'm just a little too not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)
Not over you
(eh eh eh oh eh eh eh)

A Little Too Not Over You.

Oh gawd.2 more days till 'N' level results are released.Still not so sure what time we'll have to be in school,though.Ah crap.More things to worry about.Timing for returning to school,N level results' outcome,future...etc.etc.Ah crap.&my birthday's coming soon.Once again,I say ah crap.Somehow sweet 16 doesn't look like it's going to be a sweet 16.Some people can't seem to make it.Or they're just too lazy or cxan't be bothered to come.Can't believe I actually considered them as my friends.What bullpoppy is this man..!Can't even celebrate my birthday with those I want to?Argh.Maybe I should just dig a hole and hide in there.What's the point of living above ground when nobody seems to care?Might as well just hide somewhere and be ignored.Same as not being cared when above ground.Crap.So it official.The birthday year I have been so looking forward to is now officially so not looking forward for.Crap.Maybe I should just kill myself.Argh.Crap crap crap crap.I have such a bullpoppy crappy life.Arghh.Nothing ever seems to cheer me up right now.Listening to music doesn't help,writing poems doesn't help,even reading doesn't seem to help.Argh.&all the songs I listen to all end up being slow love songs.Argh.&I kept dreaming of HIM recently.Gawd.Can't I like forget him for good?It's uber annoying!Maybe before I find out my results,I am going to build a barrier around me.I'm going to protect myself from the outside world now.I am going to be more guarded around people now.'Cause I keep feeling that people are lying to me.I mean people I treat as friends don't seem to treat me back the same way.&lokoking back now,I seem to have lost a few of my friends.&they are the very people whom I have trusted alot only to have them broken.So now I'm going to build a barrier around me and be VERY guarded and careful around EVERYONE I meet.ALthough there is a slight chance some people will break those barriers.But we'll just have to see who are they.Maybe only those who manage to break my barrier will be my real and true friends.Hmph.Whatever.This is just real crappy.&really bullpoppy.It's f-ing frustrating,ya know that?Seriously wished I have a little pet to cheer me up.Wish I had a dog.But no..!My mummy doesn't allow.Argh.Then the next best this is a hamster..But dogs are still the best.They really can sense when you're happy or sad or whatever emotions.Argh.Really wish I can get my own house so I can get a dog.But home is where I belong that idea is so out.Argh.When the time comes then yeah.I'll do as I wish. :( Crap.Fine,I'm ending here now.Crap.

2008-12-14T23:33:00.002+08:00

Dandandadannnn~!I am so dead.4 more days till my DOOMS DAY. *gulp* Anyway,past few days had a little Singapore fun. Went Sentosa with mummy,siblings,cousins&2nd aunt.Went on the luge.Damn fun.Paired up with Olivia.2nd aunt paied up with Elicia.Mummy paired up with sis&my brother went alone.Haha!So fun.Then went for lunch.Hahaha.After that went to underwater world.Watched them feed the animals.LOL.Loved the Dugon. :) Then went Dolphin Lagoon.PINK DOLPHIN!Hahaha.Somehow,I have a feeling that I've already talked about this. o.O Ohwell...Anyway,yesterday went Singapore Flyer.Hahaha.Doesn't feel very high up. :( Not what I expected.Hahaha.Thought it would be quite high up.But it wasn't. :( But overall it was good. :) &today..had roti prata~!YUM!Love it man!Hahaha.Loved their chicken curry.But they gave me fish curry. :( Damn.&when I finished my prata,my brother told me his was chicken curry.Like WTH..?Lol.Ohwell! :) Then spent the whole afternoon at home.Hahaha.Then met aunt,uncle&cousins for dinner.Lol.YAY XIAO LONG BAO! :) Hahahahaha!Then walked around a bit cause uber full!Lol.Then had dessert at Sratbucks!YAY! :) Hahahaha.Had my comfort drink,Iced Signature Chocolate.LOL!&a new book!My fourth book to the House of Night series,UNTAMED.Lol. :) Then some things happened.Not going to mention.Argh.Yeah.&my brother renewed his contract.He got a Sony Eric W595,I think.The shacker phone. T.T Eee..! I also want to change my phoneee~!But noooo..!I have to wait for my results to come out firstt~!See if I deserve it or nottt~!Dammit.&I have no idea what phone to choose.I have 3 choices:W305i,K770i or C902.Lol.Any suggestions..?LOL.Ok,end here le.I hear a sad song&I feel like crying now.Damn...I'm starting to get all gloomy again.Shyt..

2008-12-12T22:09:00.002+08:00

This song is uber nice I tell you.I seriously have to try to figure out how to play this song.I have the notes but no idea how to play it.Haha.Too bad it's not the official lullaby for Belle in the movie.It would be beautiful in the movie.Hahaha.&&&in this video,the words go with the song.So damn sweet cam? *sigh*
Anyhoo....Today went to Sentosa.Hahaha.FUn man!Went down the luge then went underwater world.Hahaha. Then went to Dolphin Lagoon.Like holy crap?I simply just love those dolphins!Argh.I wanna swim with the dolphins!Hahaha.Then had dinner at Ah Yat Seafood Restaurant. O.o Weird name.Hahaha.Then now planning to go Singapore Flyer tml!Yayy!Hahahaha.Ok,that's all I guess. :) Byeee! <3

2008-12-10T21:37:00.002+08:00

Joke of the day!
`One day,Santa woke up with a terrible headache and a flu.For the whole day,Mrs.Santa kept nagging at Santa.Suddenly,the angel of joy burt into Santa's room and said :" My!What a wonderful day!Don't you think it's a wonderful,beautiful day Santa?"Sanat gave him one look and the next thing the angel knew.He was stuck up on the tree with the end stuck up his ass. :D So that is why you always place the angel on top of the tree!

Hahaha.That was a joke my daddy told us that sent us all into laughing fits!Hahaha.You should have seen the actions my daddy did la!Especially the facial expression of the angel with the tip of the tree stuck up his ass!Lol.&I finishes reading my CHOSEN le!Hahaha.Now I gotta go find the forth book,UNTAMED!Yay!Haha.&I sms-ed kor too.Lol.Talked about our result day.Damn.LOL!He said he was going to confiscate all my tissues.Hahaha.Said he wasn't going to let me cry.Hahahaha. :D Ok,end here now.LOL!I feel gooooooood! :D <3

2008-12-09T22:16:00.002+08:00

BUT IT'S TIME TO FACE THE TRUTH.I WILL NEVER BE WITH YOU.

Argh.I have no idea what's wrong with me.It's just...just...ARGH!I DON"T KNOW WHAT IT IS!I mean 4years!Stuck in the stupid clutches of crushes.&whenever I want to give up,my heart won't let me.Then now when I'm not even thinking of giving up,I seem to be giving up subconciously!DAMN.But I talked it out with Marcus.Haha.He is such a joker.Lol.For awhile he made me forget about all this hooha.Haha.&he called it the after-exam paranoid syndrome.Lol.Thanks alot man!Haha.&we talked about how hot ahemahem was.Lol!But I said somebody else was hotter.Hahaha!Damn funny!I hadn't had such a conver like this in ages!Let alone with a guy!Hahaha.Anyway,went to watch BOLT today.It was nice man!Don't mind watching again.Lol.&I got a new book!YAY!The third book of THE HOUSE OF NIGHT SERIES. :D Hahaha.So cool.I have 2 sets of series of books.One TWILIGHT Series and this HOUSE OF NIGHT series.Lol.Man,am I becoming a bookworm!Hahaha.At least it helps me take my mind off of things. :) Haha.&I got a new bag!It's Zinc!Haha.Wonder if I could get a Crumpler.Hmm..Hahaha!But I still prefer a PSP. :D But I also want a new phone...My daddy was like you have 2 choices.You either get a new phone or a PSP.Argh.Whatever...Lol.Guess I shall end here now. :) I am a happy girl...(I guess.) <3

2008-12-07T23:53:00.002+08:00

HEY PEOPLE.Haha.Finaly I can settle down at home. :) You cannot believe what a weekend I have been having! Actually...3 weekends.Hahaha.First week was 2nd last week of November.Was away visiting Grandmawmaw.Then last week of Nov was in HK.LOL!Then this week wenk KL visit uncle.Holy crap?&because of these trips,I have been missing out onm ALOT of my drama show!Damn!My MAGICIANS OF LOVE!!I so gotta catch up on youtube!Hahaha.&you know what?I have alot of dates coming up too! :D Hahaha.I h ave a date with my hol homework from school!Haha.A date with english,social studies&art.LOL! &then I have a date with my story. :D I am sort of writing a story right now.Haha.Hope it's good. :D WHen I'm done maybe I'll ask a few close friends to read it.Hahaha.Hm...&a date with my wallet.Need to go buy a new book.I am SO damn frickin dead without a book!Just finished 2 of the latest books.Marked&Betrayed. Now looking for Chosen.It's another series like Twilight.LOL!&they're about vampires(or vampyres) again! Hahaha.I'm like obsessed with them la!Holy crap?&I am totally obsessed with the guys from the two books? LOL!Edward Cullen from Twilight&Erik Night from Marked.Hahaha.They sound so damn hot&gorgeous la! Hahahaha!Too bad they're all make believe..Or I would so totally go after them!...NOT!Hahaha.Or maybe yes... :D &&&I'm going to start drawing up some fashion designs too!Haha.No idea what's wrong with me.LOL!So many things keeping me busy.&I am starting to have dark rings below my eyes!DAMN!If only I was prettier,whiter,weird eye colour...I could so totally be a vampire. :D Pretty.White.Weird coloured eyes.Dark rings under my eyes.A hungry vampire.LOL.Time to go hunting that's for sure.LOL.Or prettier&a moon shaped mark on my forehead.LOL.A human marked for life as a vampire.How sad.Have to go to some vampire school&from a fledging become a matured vampire or die in the process of changing.LOL!Okok.Enough ranting of this nonsense.Time to go.LOL!Byeeee! <3

2008-12-03T16:19:00.002+08:00

I COULD BE YOUR ADDICTION IF YOU
WANT TO GET HOOKED ON ME.

Yeahyeah.It feels so great to be back home! :D Hahaha.The HK trip was awesome man!We left on friday morning and we spent the day shopping! :D Hahaha.That was practically what we did for the whole trip la!Eat,shop,sleep.LOL!Bought lots of things man!I bought a Babe Blu bag,a grey hoodie(it looks like a mini dress la),a Playboy shirt,Sasa lipgloss,a pair of Filas shoe&Converse shoe.Haha!&we had mango deserts too!That was just delicious!Loved the Sago in mango juice with extra mango.LOL!The name's like damn hilarious la!Hahaha.Then on Sunday we went Disneyland! :D The first ride we went on was the SPACE MOUNTAIN! :D That ride was nice!SUper fun!It's a little like Singapre's escape theme park Panasonic.Hahaha.Rode that one the most.LOL!We evern bought the photo of us la!Hahaha.Then Monday..The last day.We rode the MTR(that's right.They call it the MTR&that was how we got around HK.NOT taxi hor) to Sam Shui Po station I think.LOL!Then we went to Dragon Centre to shop for small little stuffs.LOL.Bought a few pairs of ear rings&a necklace.Haha.&you know what?They're all cherries!Hahaha.A little kuckoo over cherries now.LOL.All because of The Magicians of Love.Hahaha.Speaking of Magicians of Love...I HAVE BEEN MISSING THE PAST 6 EPISODES..!Damnnnn~! (>(00)<) Shyt man!&they're all the best parts..?SHYTTTTT~!Argh...Nvm.I shall watch on youtube. :D Hahaha.Ok,end here le!LOL.I'M GOING TO WATCH TWILIGHT SOON! :D

2008-11-27T16:06:00.002+08:00

SINGAPORE TODAY,HONGKONG TOMORROW! (^(00)^)

Alright!I am so totally xite that I'm going to HK tomorrow!Then again..Hahaha.No la.I'm happy,just not so happy that I have to wake up so early.Hahaha.Ohwell! :D Can't wait!Can go shopping..!I am so going to update my wardrobe man!Hahahahaha.Going to shop at Esprite. :D YESSSS~!Can't wait!Hahahaha.Going HK Disneyland too!&Ocean Park.Hahahaha.&I just updated my mp3.LOL!More like mp4. :D I uploaded some videos on to watch.LOL!Now I have CAN I HAVE THIS DANCE&NOGHT TO REMEMBER by HSM3,DECODE by PARAMORE,ACHMED THE DEAD TERRORIST&HEROS OF OUR TIME by DRAGONFORCE.LOL!I gotta keep myself entertained if the plane I'm boarding don't have anything to entertain me! :D Hahahaha.&I am planning on watching Twilight! :D Finally decided to go.LOL>Didn't want to go at first cause of the actors&actresses.But then I managed to catch a glimpes of the movie&I changed my mind.I'm going to watch it!Hahaha.Now the problem is finding some people to go with me.Hm..Hahaha.Okay..I am so damn hyper right now.LOL!Wonder if it's a good sign.Hahahaha.Ok,end here now!BYEEEE!WIll be back in 5 days time! <3

2008-11-26T15:48:00.005+08:00

ISN'T IT TIME FOR YOU TO START FACING UP TO REALITY?
REALLY.STOP LIVING IN THAT STUPID FANTASY WORLD OF YOURS!
IT'S NOT GETTING YOU ANYWHERE!

Gosh.I've no idea what's going on around me anymore.I live life like there's nothing wrong,but somehow I keep having a hunch that there IS something wrong.&a very big part of me is missing..A very very big part of me.Argh!Keep having sleepless nights now.&my flu isn't helping much either.It's depriving me more of my sleep!&I'm leaving for HK this Friday..?I'm going to die man!Can't afford to fall sick! (>(00)<) Better start taking flu tablets&medicine!FREAK!I am so dead man!Somebody help me please! *sigh*
On another hand,I am missing a lot of people now.I miss my diva-licious GF,my 2 BFs&my Bimbo sister.
(-(00)-) Dunno what to do man!Miss them so much yet...I don't feel like seeing either one of them. (o(00)O) Like what's up with that..?Ohwell...
&I've been getting very weird dreams lately.Dreams with...advises..? (o(00)O) Goodness.I must be going crazy..But really.Few nights ago,a dream said "So long as you don't give up,miracles will happen." &another night a dream said "Believe in miracles." I even have a ring around my neck that says that la!Inspired by it ma..Another dream that says "Have a heart.Have faith.Believe!"&the most recent one.A very upsettting one.It's on top.But I'll say it again "Isn't it time you start facing up to reality?Really.Stop living in that stupid fantasy world of yours!It's not getting you anywhere!" ('(00)') What is happening to me..?
&on a lighter tone...I'm going to have my nails done before I leave for HK! (^(00)^) Haha.So happy.WOnder what design am I going to do... (@(00)@) Hahaha.Nvm.When I get there,I'll see what they have. :) Ok,that's all now.Byeeee!

2008-11-25T12:21:00.002+08:00

Hahaha.It's so good to be back home.LOL!But it's not gonna last long.Haha.Going to leave for HK this Friday.Fast right?Just got back from Kuching last night la!Hahaha.Ohwell. :D Anyway,today going to watch MADAGASCA 2!Hahaha.So cute.I LIKE TO MOVE IT MOVE IT.Hahaha!&I love the advertisement that showed them landing.LOL!Okok.Go le.Will update when I get back! :D <3>

2008-11-21T12:29:00.002+08:00

Gosh.This is such a beautiful song. :D Very meaningful too.Hahaha.&I love this font too! :D So cool!Hahahaha.&Kenneth just got back from HK! :) He sau he went there see chiobus.LOL!Fine la.He go there see chiobu,I go there look for shuaigeees! :D No la.Not my type of thing.LOL!Plus go scouting for shuaiges alone no fun one.Hahahahaha.Ok..lame.Hahahaha.Hm..Ok,after this better go pack my bad for tonight's trip.Going to visit my granny! :D Coming back on Mon.Then Tues to Thurs got dance training.Can I like skip Tues's training..?LOL.&I'll have to change my braces before I leave for HK.Hahaha!&guess what?My brother's friend is coming along too.DAMN!Hahaha.No fair.I also want to ask my friends alongggg! :( Hahahaha.K la.End here.LOL.Pask my bagggg! :D Byeee! <3

2008-11-20T16:33:00.002+08:00

Hey ya'll! :) Please take note of these few dates. :) Thanks!

20Nov-23Nov - Kuching,Sarawak!
28Nov-2Dec - HK!

Hahaha.So many people going HK.LOL!Audrey Law,Marcus(I think),LiPing..Don't know who else.But alot of people are going HK,I know.Hahahaha.Ohyeah.Jess is going too I think.LOL.But she's going Hokaido first.WAHLAO!I want to gooo!JESSSSS!CAN i BE YOUR MAID!I HELP YOU CARRY YOUR LUGGAGES!BRING ME TO HOKAIDO WITH YOUUUUUUU! :D Hahahahahahahaha.See how deperate I am?LOL.Ohwell..Maybe next time. :) Jess!You heqar me!Next year let's all go on a holiday together!Your family&mine! :D Hahahahaha.I'm crazy.I know.But that's just my middle name! :D Hahahahahaha.Ok,thtis is a HUGE change from my previous mood.LOL.Previously I was damn moody.LOL.But now I'm like hyper hyper hyper!Hahahaha.Maybe I'm just happy..No.LEATED about some things. :D Hahahahaha.Ok,end here now.
I WANNA WATCH BEVERLY HILLS CHIHUAHUA! :) ANYBODY WANNA DO THE HONOURS OF WATCHING IT WITH THIS LITTLE LADAYE..?! :D

Hahahaha.I know.Lame..But OHWELL! :D Hahahaha.Ok.End here.I'm done!I'm out!I miss my 2 favourit BFs&my diva-licious GF! :( &my bimbotic sista.Hm... <3

2008-11-18T21:29:00.002+08:00

YES!I AM HOME! :D

WOOPDEWOOP!I am finally back home!FMDC was totally awesome!Except for a thing or two.Without one of them would make the camp an EXTRAVANGANZA! :) Haha.Anyway,packed for camp on the night of Sunday.Monday went to school at about 8.30 to meet up with the dance committee. :) Was in group4,the so-called leader&the room IC.For the girls' room,which was C110&C111.Hahaha.Andrew was the IC for the guys' room. :) Anyway,during the camp.We found out 1 ironic thing about the camp.In school,the teachers are forever saying PLEASE DO NOT SIT ON THE TABLE!&guess what?In camnp,we're expected to SLEEP ON the table?Hahahaha.Damn ironic la! :) Anyway,we spent the first day of camp playing Run,Sciccors,Paper,Stone,Blackie,Jacob's Ladder&dance's famous game,catching. :) Or something like catching,but you run around a circle of people. :) Super fun.Then we had our dance training.BUT it was Indian Dance. :) It was fun but super tiring.Hahaha.Then we showered&had our night activities. :) We had treasuer hunt.Fun man!Hahaha.Run here,run there.After running around for awhile,my stomach felt like it was on fire. :-p Damn uncomfortable.Ohwell.Goor excercise though.Then we went to PA&has some haunted house thing.It was madness man!Haha.Then we were all damn tired already.So after our debrife,we all SLEEPPP!Haha.Wah!I seriously regretted not bringing a pillow la!Damn uncomfortable.Not used to sleeping without my doggy. :( Hahahaha!Then today woke up at 6.00. :0 So early..Hahaha.Washed up,pack up,look at the time,6.30 nia. T.T Stupid,wake up so early only to have to much time left.Hahaha.ANyway,7 went foyer and had PT. :) Or something like that.Then BREAKFAST!Had fruit loops. :) YUMM!Hahaha.Then we went back to the room&got ready for the trip to ECP. :) Went blading with Rosanne,Andrew,Cherie,Clarissa&...I cn't seem to remember whoelse.Ooops. :( It was OMGGGG!Rented the blades then cycled towards changi.Along the way met Kenneth&Rick(2 tutors from aspire hub).&half way throught Cherie fell.Then Rossane chiong bck to Mac to get first aid kit.But they all say don't want to blade already,so I told them to go sit down somewhere infront while I bladed off to catch up wih Rossane.&along the way,met Christophor.Hahaha.Anyway,after that caught up with Rosanne&then chionged back to Andrew they all there. :-p Cam die seh!Hahaha.After rerturning the blades,my legs were like jelly&my foot was TOTALLY numb!I mean,got feeling la,just the side there numb.Haha.Walked back to Mac&Andrew bought me fries&sprite! :) Hahahaha.Damn nice.MY COMFOR FOOD! :D Hahaha.After that went back to school,showered&had MacChicken. :) Hahaha.After that packed up the room&got ready for the farewell party at Vanessa's house.LOL.Went to play at the swing with Andrew,Priscilla,Shykin&SHeenaz.Haha.but before that borrowed KitSeng's costume.LOL.SO cute,from BLEACH.The captain,I think.There was a 5 behind.LOL.After tahat helped with the BBQ.SUPER FUN! :) Hahaha.&NOW I AM HOME! :D Hahahaha.YAY!Ok,I'm going to sleep now.Bye!I MISS MY BED! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

Do you know?

You’re like a dictionary.

You add meaning to my life!