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Her name is Valerie.Born December 30.Stopped celebrating her birthday in 2008.Currently studying in FMSS as the graduating class of 09.Hopes to get into Ngee Ann to do Vetenarian Science.Loves her dearest friends:Jessica,Keith,Kenneth...etc. :) Too many to mention.Loves all things vintage&countrified.
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♥ Te amaré por siempre más.something is so totally wrong with me...,
Monday, April 28, 2008
Time now: Monday, April 28, 2008

Shucks.Something is seriously wrong with me.Don't know why but I keep having some crazy thoughts going through my head.Things like what life would be like over the other side of the window or the ledge.It's just so scary.&recently I have started dreaming about me myself actually DOING those scary things.Seriously don't know what's wrong with me now.Probably I am just to emotional and that I have probably watched a little too much drama.But still...Don't know why I just can't stop thinking of these things.But one day,if I am really brave enough,I'd really let go of everything and just take the plunge.But somehow,I can't help but have a feeling that there will be something or someone there to stop me...Even if I do,at most I'll just say "LEAVE ME ALONE,PLEASE.JUST LET ME BE.LET ME GO SOMEWHERE FAR FAR AWAY.WHERE NOBODY CAN EVER FIND ME.PLEASE DO ME THIS FAVOUR AND JUST LET ME GO." Sigh.But somehow I think I just won't be able to do it.But I'm sure with a little boost,like a dear friend of mine who is in the same phlight as me...If we were to do it together,I'm sure I would be more than happy to do it.But there's this little voice that keeps saying "YOU CAN'T TAKE YOUR LIFE AWAY JUST LIKE THAT!DON'T YOU REMEMBER THE PROMISE YOU MADE TO A CERTAIN SOMEONE?YOU PROMISED HIM TO LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!SO STOP THINKING OF SUCH THINGS AND CARRY ON WITH YOUR LIFE!" But how can I?Let me ask you!How on earth do you expect me to live life to the fullest when everything in my life seems to be up-side down and that it is so damn effing screwed?!I really can't take it anymore.Everyday in school I try to stay as far away from the ledge as possible for fear that these awful thoughts would come back and get the better of me.It's just so scary how close I am now to lossing my life but maybe it is worth it.I mean,I will be ending all of this sorrow and I won't be around to cause anymore trouble for anyone who has ever known me.BLEAH.
Anyway,today was rather slack-ish,enjoyable&very the emoooo.Was planning to study before each paper but somehow I just can't seem to concentrate!Then half the time I kept gettin gpoked by keith&kenneth.LOL.The most alarming/shocking one I have gotten so far was from keith...As usual...He never fails to give me a shocking or alarming poke.Ohwell...What to do?Nothing...Then it was tuition...Wah,audrey&I emo-ed like shyt mannn.Thought of sdome thoughts&those thoughts made us feel sad&you know...Teared a little during tuition but I'm ok now I guess...Then while waiting for my mamma to come,I started to think those awful thoughts again&I started to tear again... =.= Audrey was like AYO.WHAT ARE YOU THINKING OF NOW? Lol.Don't worry!I'm ok now,I guess. :) Don't need to worry.BLEAH.Ok,end here now.Need to go study...MATHS& CHEMISTRY. :)
Shyt.My life is so damn screwed.Can't take it anymore.
If only I was brave enough...Maybe I'd be able to take one last look around,
take e deep last breath and take the plunge.
GOOD-BYE WORLD.